PROF ~ Cutthroat
https://youtu.be/IDwI9iyohYc?si=BdMe-9CR5kWRBG1O
Carly Pearl ~ Pronoia
https://youtu.be/wRNbVPpmjT8?si=SSHVQCoJcrVGv3ju
Kerli ~The Witching Hour
https://youtu.be/oSI7VRDrmzQ?si=_gvzRmMCvatEZk4c
Regurgitator ~ Cocaine run{A}way
https://youtu.be/8gvREi0Txpg?si=DI4cdNQ7tW5_MOAe
Run The Jewels ~ RunThe[MF]Jewels
https://youtu.be/AfuCLp8VEng?si=RhwAAlGrzCX_fPR_
https://youtu.be/2YGd3UFSfKo?si=vLNmLhWhgqScRIVS
PROF ~ Devil'$ Gate
https://youtu.be/aH9M3G4lGqY?si=va0nNManTQhy3Cl8
Kerli ~ 🐲Alchemise
https://youtu.be/h--Ny6HeVgY?si=0ybgGdYmzrrgbsvj
Tiny Desk Concert ~ 311
https://youtu.be/MgTDLlDY_yY?si=ccFK26inAGlMMN2j
Emilee South ~ Control
https://youtu.be/gHaXapDWxZc?si=Rw4jWoO7Niw1CSS5
INZO ~ Just A Mirage
https://youtu.be/9LbFU_gBQKA?si=l4zsD-QQu61WGNJM
PROF ~ Spellbound
https://youtu.be/pYXuSGZdjGM?si=KGDiM0zxxDaWenM8
Sia ~ I Forgive You
https://youtu.be/QnhQmnDH1oA?si=Nfg25jSLhcXikoUr
Lil Dicky ~ HAHAHA
https://youtu.be/ku6A5w6uWtY?si=RtUp3i3kxNWaDU1s
Zoltan Kaszas ~ The Eclipse Burned My Eyes
https://youtu.be/eHEoG1SRByg?si=hTVkpObkR0CdNAxa
🎶some things
look better
just passing
through🎵🙃
I'm certain Elon's got some little site set up somewhere in these here interwebz, where anyone can follow me anywhere, without leaving a digital impression of their attention. But, still, the reptilians use my apparent (supposed🙄) lack of visibility to poke at some lifelongheld and parentally established insecurity regarding validation. It really is a shame they're such a dark force, in and around the rest of us, seeking only to siphon and destroy that which makes our lives pleasant and enjoyable.
MileyCyrus💗 ~ Used to be Young❤️🩹
https://youtu.be/IZ3XMOdOdKM?si=8mRV8xGR1_oBJfyR
Ginny Luke ~ Devil @ MyHeels
https://youtu.be/x9oH-ebCnDc?si=JJ8a696wXXhr9D_C
X Ambassadors ~ Follow the Sound of my Voice
https://youtu.be/_vlihdiqtew?si=oPiTox8yzMpmEi92
It's a weird process, unraveling the clusterfuck that became my heartmind, in the wake of my family's theatrical death 24+ years ago. The most prominent inversion I'm processing right now is the way my lizard dad took control of my entire perception of my role in the "family," and singlehandedly determined whether or not I should be made to feel meaningful at any given moment, effectively establishing the illusion that he was always the parent I was most emotionally enmeshed with. I believe this was intended to further hide the reality of immediately having been raped by my real dad at birth from my all but irreparable psyche. I literally wouldn't be able to believe it.
Reality of the matter is, it was my mom that I most deeply clung to, and related with, as a small child. My dad was a bit of an arrogant prick, even in his most vulnerable states. Impossible to meaningfully bond with, no matter the person or intent. My UncleMike was his closest confidant, and even that relationship was heavily shrouded in mob energy; no delicacy anywhere to be found. {reminiscent of Porter & Aponte. I still love you guys, of course.}
Intimacy (beyond physical) was my father's deepest fear, and my mother's deepest hope. Lizard dad regularly accused lizard mom of being incapable of intimacy with him, appearing to "open up" to me about his own deep seeded insecurities surrounding rejection, making it almost impossible for me to sever my own connection with him. Lord knows I could never "abandon" his sensitive and damaged heart, especially if I felt like the only one even capable of recognizing it.
Ha ha. Joke's on me, his heart had long since stopped beating, as had hers.
Moral of the story is, lizard people are methodical, and fully committed to the bit.
Unbelievably committed.
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