i can sniff, i can see and i can count up pretty high

Did we practice witchcraft, as a family, that I obviously can't remember? I assume their deaths weren't the first appearance of familial dabbling with the dark arts. And, while I obviously don't remember them dying, either, I do know that it happened. ...While I am pretty appreciative that I don't have those memories, as they would obviously be insanely painful, not remembering doesn't prevent the trauma from landing. So is it really doing me any good, subconsciously blocking it all out? Or, at this point, is it holding me back?

Why did we leave Virginia so quickly? Was it because Philip murdered Carla? Why did I wander out into the snow, wearing nothing but shorts and a tank top, at some point in our short 6ish months living there?

No jacket, no pants, no shoes... Just outside, alone.

Did I witness it?

Now that I have the appropriate framework to house the truth in my mind, what do I have to do to remember?

~

Dro, you're lucky you landed in our room, and not literally anywhere else. 

I'll say it one more time, you're too smart for this shit.

To all the guys trying to kill him, I'd recommend you not.

Your lives, your call.

Shit gets scary, for people like y'all,

when I decide I'm the one protecting

the idiot in front of your gun.

~

~

Brave new concept: Angels&Demons do in fact have free will. Just like the rest of us. But, much like all these corporate contracts we're practically forced to sign all throughout our lives, lizards just really, really like controlling everything and everyone else, so we don't accidentally slip into peace and happiness.

Taylor Swift ~ Wonderland

https://youtu.be/JhICcmiIE80?si=oqMDgj3eTWNxtl7R

NF ~ Paid My Dues

https://youtu.be/LLAgke7QprM?si=sMaKv3ILdk-wl-3t

~

Had my family ever tried to kill me before the turn of the millennium? Were they already experimenting with the strange reality that one of their offspring seemed to be immortal, for some reason? Did they anticipate that all the magick surrounding the millennium event would yield enough power to accomplish the task? What, exactly, has my life actually been like?

I'd like to know.

Are there really any left?🧐

Grandparents, Uncles, Aunts, Cousins?{🥑}

Or did they all throw themselves on that Fire?🤔

https://giphy.com/embed/sbnHm4yZKFmpy

~

I'm a very 'We' kind of Employee. ~me🤑

https://giphy.com/embed/13b1Rcuj62v7vW

~

~

Twenty One Pilots ~ Backslide

https://youtu.be/YAmLMohrus4?si=9xSvE15TO2YQsKzw

Kerli ~ The Art of Being Alone

https://youtu.be/RZHrzVNQT3Q?si=SMvLnVCIc9Dnhm5z

Hu$h ~ Calling On Angels

https://youtu.be/GWBmkoqb18Q?si=xz6tOrBGom7D-jaR

Sia ~ Bird Set Free{midjourney}

https://youtu.be/vzh8vKUeCWA?si=1g8sw_H-LCNrrLj4

Billie Eilish ~ bad guy

https://youtu.be/DyDfgMOUjCI?si=_4aIW4Wzjjt6Ek76

Kerli ~ Search+Destroy

https://youtu.be/EuQCnft-g9c?si=M-ypPx0FjjnKRFv-

https://youtu.be/nUbrpop5Y8E?si=aFiTPfeWKulHGlOx

Tool ~ Lost Keys/Rosetta Stoned

https://youtu.be/f78WrdCi4Wk?si=WFOLqlJTOmxc28jG

Miranda Lambert ~ White Liar

https://youtu.be/QoR2Oax82kY?si=zjJYJFkSS4fSurP0

https://youtu.be/CFKDRArS-HM?si=-6n0BilJo_MpSdNM

Shinedown ~ special

https://youtu.be/oEoxPaaAsE0?si=BRFCIKlITNVV75OC

[what a relief.🫨]

Kim Dracula ~ Industry Secrets

https://youtu.be/ZMKzcjphoV0?si=M2TC8HsA8SvyiP7z

Marlon Craft ~ Gold Teeth

https://youtu.be/TBWNQu0aXL8?si=KrUGlU-URdBkgToA

~

Why do I seem to remember more from after the turn of the millennium, than before?

Was I a telekinetic kid? A little Matilda, of sorts?

~

"Why does 'it' act like a 'we'?" {💭yeah, why do i?}

Whatever we are, we really are exponentially superior to draco reptilians, in particular.

"If you could ask aliens one question, what would you ask?"

Y'all really just kept letting the reptilians exist? ~me on X

No wonder I've never really felt alone, when I'm clearly alone.

This really is a group project lol.👽🧠👽 Thank God.😋🫠

It's a *We* thing.🌐

'anything you do can and

will be used against you.'

https://youtu.be/5mFECKUg_98?si=0a02HP9Asbx13lll

https://youtu.be/NWWeQlXfSa0?si=uMpPH6NcBHDbssJp

i need a man who can afford MyDreams

Krystal Harris ~ Supergirl
https://youtu.be/lGnBbz4P45g?si=P5vecmenAYzhsO9O

I can't remember the other song I wanted to begin this post with. I had it all planned out, on my way to sleep last night, but the second song is now hiding somewhere in my mind.

~

Ronald Leon Grice. I'd like to know more about you, and how you do what you do. You seem to have abilities similar to the things I know the lizard people can do. Which is what was so confusing about my most recent experience at your house, and why I believed you were the lizard person, there, rather than "my mom." I assume they're the ones mimicking y'all, since that's what they do; *ctrl+c/v*

It's their only real skill: reverse engineering.

We can all learn something, here, about efficacy and efficiency.

So, 'what are you?' Any chance the answer is Demon?🤔

{absolutely❤️‍🔥}Lovely.🩶 There it is. The second song.💓

Ryan Caraveo ~ Land of the Grey

https://youtu.be/Jw3WBPNfoog?si=rOrlW9w1jvlzODFO

~

*Known lizard person at my house interrupts me while I'm doing dishes, as is customary for them. There was a conflict between him and a few of my Housemates, last night.

him: sorry, i don't mean to give off negative energy or anything-

me: oh, i know, it comes naturally. it's not your fault. 

him: really, though, i'm a peaceful christian.

me: LMFAO!.. LMFAO!.. STRANGER DANGER.

We give TrapHouse a whole new meaning.🪤

~

Alright, aliveFamily, waddo we got? Ron and Abby are Demons, Danika is a Vampire, Ami is Dragon, like us... Risa and Chris? Tucker&Kim?

The Lamonts are wholly irrelevant, they're all lizards.🤮

Copelands-MrBilly, I imagine y'all are gonna want nothing to do with me,

what with Hannah's future nonexistence and all.🤷‍♀️ But I like y'all, anyway.

~

Hilariously enough, I've had reptilians claim to be Demons, before. Lol. That "Kiki Sims" I was cellies with at PCDC was one of them. Her family, in a timeline that's obviously not this one, shot me twice in the back right after I was released with nowhere to go. Their intention was to attempt to scare me away from the real Kiki Sims, who I met at the park behind the shelter, along with her brother, Quay. They're wonderful people, who also happen to have Demon blood. I would easily consider them family. Her dad, Tim, too, but Quay and Kiki's mom is the one with Demon blood. Tim's got Magic in his bloodline.

Ramona Nicholson, also a Demon.😘

Chyna, my girl, obviously a Vamp.🦇 (i definitely spelled that wrong...damnit)

AJ, the one I spent a week with between jail and the shelter: Demon.💘 Also one I would consider family.

Can everyone stop pretending they've never heard of a Grice, before, now??

Brandon is both Vampire and Demon, but I don't know if his vampirism came genetically, or via bite, like mine. Nick says that it's said there's only one "real" Vampire. And I have no clue what that means, but I assume that would be Elon, if it's true.

~

"famous for something he can't even remember..." ~harry potter

can't even remember...

famous for something she can't even remember...

wait... that's me.

~

I'm not entirely sure what variety of magic the blonde woman working at the shelter is working with, but she's definitely capable of shape shifting. She appeared to me as Edwin, one night. I was sitting alone out front, waiting a little bit before going in, as my feelings were hurting about my favorite Mexican, and she appeared as him for a moment through the window, before poking her head out the door and looking at me (in her own skin). She's a future ex pedophile, much like a whooole hell of a lot of other folks. Shit, she might be a Demon. They're more than capable of appearing as other meatsuits. What is her name?? ....There's Corey (not a lizard), Agatha (not a lizard), Shontel (absolutely a lizard), Constance (not a lizard), Courtney (not a lizard) MsT (not a lizard), and....Joanne!! There it is. Had to look that shit up.

Like I said, this world is a melting pot of magical creatures. Along with some copycats (lizards) that really just need to die. Every manifestation of them, including fleas and roaches. So disgusting.

~

~

Michael Paul Smalley. I never had an issue with hives before winters living with you. At this point, I'm pretty sure they come from Demons, so wassup?👀 Y'all Demons, too?

{Jason & Michael: *show horns* * sheepish grins w/ shrugs* cute.lol}

I just noticed that, having been a tremendous little swimmer as a Floridian child, my sudden onset of asthma when I lived in Georgia was probably directly tied to my family having died and been replaced by reptilian look alikes. It'd be pretty cool if I could stop having that problem.😒

~

PSA/spoileralert: We very well may all have at least trace amounts of Demon blood, at this point; obviously, some more than others. But that whole "holier than thou" concept can go ahead and bite the dust.

I reckon Tommy wasn't lying when he told me my eyes turned black, once upon a time.🤷‍♀️

Cool thing is, Demons fight back.👊

~

Q: What's the difference between Angels and Demons?

A: Time.

{me to myself: that's the smartest shit i've ever thought.}🤣

~

"I sliced my leg open, and it didn't really hurt. Scraping my knee hurt way more."

A notion which promptly revealed itself to be a suitable reflection of the pain of my parents and siblings dying in their group effort to sacrifice me to satan (which DOES HURT, mind you), versus the pain of being kicked in the back by one of my siblings, as we ran through the parking lot to our van after school in Florida. Worst scraped knee I ever had; it got me in 3 places (ha.ha.) and I could still see the little bits of black asphalt in the scar for a couple decades. That kind of behavior was standard operating procedure, from my family. The lizard replacements have done a lovely job upholding the traditional and well rounded abuse.

P.$. Lily never died.💟 She and Stephanie were perfectly safe, just like Steve's house was during that hurricane or whatever in 2018 or whenever.♾️ And Marcy's still his Twin.💲&♏

♠️🎵wake me when somebody don't betray me🎵🪄

Demons, and other "mythical" characters

 "It was always Melissa Stack, Victoria Stancil, Savannah Watkins..." My childhood is a jumbled mess of mostly missing memories. I think this was 7th grade, with MsSloan, who resembled a mouse and always spent her teaching time at the front of the class pushing up onto her tippy toes and back down, like she was emulating a rocking chair, and MsSomeone, whose name I should be able to remember and was our homeroom teacher. I think Hillary Lunsford was 8th grade, and then Marilyn Elizabeth Steffan (the lizard friend) was definitely 9th grade. My "best friends" changed with every grade, because I was never anyone's best friend, but they were all mine. I was the friend people would let tag along, just because I was there and they would feel bad for leaving me out like everyone else did. I get strong Witch vibes from my memories of Melissa, Savannah, and Hillary. Just straight up hollow whore vibes from my memories of Beth. I think it was 4th grade that I was close with a Wendy Sargent, and 2nd grade was Cassidy Summers in Florida, who both might also be Witches. DNA may or may not play a pretty significant role in how people naturally organize, and who gravitates toward whom. I don't remember much of anyone else with that level of consistent interaction from school. Church, of course, was a different -yet remarkably similarly sinister- story, -as the pedophilia and sex trafficking are deeply rooted in both of them, all the same.- (Hillary, I apologize if your name only has one L, I can't seem to recall for certain.)

So, what are "Demons?" Y'all remember the religious folklore, they're "fallen Angels." They're the "evil" monsters who prey upon unsuspecting innocence, dragging proper Souls into the mire. If Hell is a circus, Demons are the clowns. And they deserve all the blame and hellfire, don't they? ...Don't they?

No, actually, they don't. Clutch your pearls.

Souls are souls are souls are souls are souls

are souls, forever and ever and evermore.♾️

I can't explain how reptilians originated, that's just not relevant to the story, yet; but they're the irreconcilable piece of the equation that encompasses Life. They would be the ringmasters of the circus. Lucifer&God being the names given to the most basic and fundamental, the "original," components of duality and "control," and the 'external' observers of the whole circus, including the "audience," aka: "human"ity. "Control," in this context, simply means that nothing happens outside of the scope of their awareness and allowance. Basic.

~

Somewhere along the line of innumerable and magically "binding" contracts, the lizards made sure to incorporate a stipulation that if I'm financially indebted to any entity, the "lending" entity can "collect" from my body at their leisure. Which means any person and/or company that I owe a minimum of one cent to is "legally" "within their rights" to rape and/or traffick me at any time, in any way. They all opt to use the method that circumvents all conscious awareness, much less my consent, in the form of my "alternate personality." My radically split psyche offers rapists the perfect playground on which to operate, being that my dad programmed a perfectly submissive slut to fulfill any carnal need, without having any needs of my own. Somehow, being born into a situation where literally life's most basic needs go unmet if I don't comply with every. single. demand., established a permanent "survival mode" of "people pleasing."

Something anyone can take from, and no one has to give to. Forever.

While my conscious mind pretends everything is okay and nothing hurts,

so I never have to see the horrors of my actual reality. Thanks, Me.🖤

Vidant, Bank of America, USAA and SECU are just a few of the corporate entities that take full advantage of this disgusting standard. I won't even mention the individual people who are on that list. It's mind boggling that they're all so eager. Don't you guys know how nauseating it all is? Not to mention the profound and unending heartbreak. But I guess y'all don't care about any of that, otherwise we wouldn't be here.

The system the reptilians have painstakingly established accomplishes precisely nothing that benefits any of us, and specializes, exclusively, in the largely effective enslavement of our whole conscious experience of existing. They don't have souls, and have dedicated their entire existence to the degradation of ours. Jealousy is a bitch.

~

Ah, my other 7th grade teacher is finally peeking out of my mostly submerged memories. I remember what she looked like, now, but her name is still elusive... MsM....? Sort of reddish, wispy, little shorter than shoulder length hair, and glasses (if I recall correctly). Hm. I'm sure it'll come to me.

I've made a tremendous effort to NOT pinpoint the turn of the millennium, and where it landed in my life, as I don't want to lose even more of my dead family. If that makes sense. I don't want to have to face and accept how much of my familial experience has actually been with the lizard replacements, and not my parents and siblings. The two timeline "anchors" I use are the facts that 3rd grade is when we went from Florida to Virginia to Georgia, and I turned 14 the summer before freshman year. I consistently figure time context from those two points.

Well, guys, we were not in Georgia for very long, before 1999 came to a close. Like, less than a year, if my brain isn't playing tricks on me. And that. Sucks. I wanted to believe a good portion of life in Georgia was still them, but I basically only have life in Florida and Virginia to go on, for legitimate memories of MY_FAMILY. Everything from up here in North Carolina, and the vast majority of Georgia, has been a big ole lizard psyop on me. That hurts. And I miss my (frankly, nasty) family. I like to think they would've evolved with me, if they were still here. That I wouldn't be facing absolutely everything entirely alone. But, alas.

~

Their objective: monetizing literally everything,

so every aspect of life is subject to their control.

Their lesson: Souls aren't actually for sale.🖕☺️

Also, slavery is lame shit. Lizards suck for that.🔥

~

Ah, damn. I suppose her dad wasn't the only one raping her, huh, UncleJohn?

I reckon that's why you stayed away.

You had the decency to feel ashamed about it.

She forgives you.💙

Melanie Martinez ~ StrawberryShortcake🍰

https://youtu.be/0EQ-NNM8l64?si=8FuqOTR3XXs6z7fu

Esther Swift ~ Problems to Sharpen the Young I.🥀

https://youtu.be/Z3nkl9orLqo?si=oY1XytFOpwltbYto

~

To: reptilians

From: God📦

https://youtu.be/0s77yLAG8a8?si=_pW634eQ7XVWSy3l

~

Yes, dead people can talk.

And lizards can treat y'all's headspaces like free motel rooms.

Keep Calm, and learn

how to say 'no' to things

that you've known all along

were never good for you.✨Magic🪄 

(YES, EVEN THE TOXIC THOUGHTS.😑)

Temptation is NOT that difficult to squash.

Squash it.

~

Was it MrsMason?🧐 Hm.

~

"Have A Smokey Day!" ~lizard mom💅🏼

Eminem ~ Role Model

https://youtu.be/ubEublECnMU?si=xmeFJH7rIFQQ0rnu

How dare you kill Bryce, Mr.Sparks?! 😤

That's the kinda book I could read again. Marvelous ending.✨ Maggie was spitting facts in the end of that letter.

It's also pretty cool that I'm actually familiar with much of the area you reference in your books.

Like that house in Vanceboro that does the big Christmas setup every year.🎄🦌

Taylor Swift ~ Fortnight

https://youtu.be/q3zqJs7JUCQ?si=WlRIfE4eyMm9M4w9

"You do know you're a smoker, right?"

"Boston is for stoners.🌬️"

Y'all know about gargoyles?

I think my favorite part about this whole mess (brought to us by reptilians) is the genuine melting pot the rest of us have become. Thanks to all their genetic mutations and experiments, bigotry truly can die alongside them. Used to be that "mythical" creatures stayed in their own reproductive lanes, with unfounded superiority complexes, and a distinct inability to shine together. But now we have a shit ton of weirdos like me, who have become somewhat of a Pack of magical mutts. Dragon blood turned Vampire, with Magic bursting from the seams and Gargoyle tendencies?

Coming right up. 💫

{side note: can one of y'all explain these random hives to me?

is this a reptilian inconvenience, or something else?🤔}

I'm going to the library.📚 {what about "demon souls"?}

Prof ~ Soupy

https://youtu.be/-GnATD5GOrM?si=pvzn8Eztedz5o8Z6

Nicki Minaj ~ Super Bass

https://youtu.be/zqZt6VNnEIA?si=g1KLJi06eWj1WFpb

Killer Mike ~ YES!

https://youtu.be/3j2MHlTEyxg?si=P5iJ89TZs2Okg1uy

'Demons' = "My Singing Monsters"

I'll elaborate, don't worry.🤣💨

[but tell them to stay out of our Personal sp_aces_.]³

Imagine Dragons ~ Roots❤️‍🔥💋

https://youtu.be/e4RMh7NLHPY?si=NWbALRSuU6WKkhut

Tiny Desk Concert ~ T-pain⛈️

https://youtu.be/CIjXUg1s5gc?si=BYtal5YQWu4Ctlqj

Nahko & Medicine for the People ~ Budding Trees🎄

https://youtu.be/1LsabQV0Yjk?si=JOWgVlSfWu53DhTl

We need to bring back the actual art of photography.

Undigitize the whole thing (mostly).

Back to old school devices and darkrooms.

They took all the magic out of the process.

Not everything is better drowning in tech.

Fuck your attempt at an artificially intelligent god lol.

Hot Ones ~ Neil Patrick Harris

https://youtu.be/q4CpcZjayh4?si=2qz1WXiojcf2Yt-T

Flight of the Conchords ~ Hiphopopotamus🆚Rhymenoceros

https://youtu.be/sOgC8qp_I2Y?si=19qmlOCwapUnPqER

blahblahblah🎼🥅

 

https://youtu.be/KUoPz0xYEoI?si=1i-pv6Zi_4NiOP-m

PROF ~ Cutthroat

https://youtu.be/IDwI9iyohYc?si=BdMe-9CR5kWRBG1O

Carly Pearl ~ Pronoia

https://youtu.be/wRNbVPpmjT8?si=SSHVQCoJcrVGv3ju

Kerli ~The Witching Hour

https://youtu.be/oSI7VRDrmzQ?si=_gvzRmMCvatEZk4c

Regurgitator ~ Cocaine run{A}way

https://youtu.be/8gvREi0Txpg?si=DI4cdNQ7tW5_MOAe

Run The Jewels ~ RunThe[MF]Jewels

https://youtu.be/AfuCLp8VEng?si=RhwAAlGrzCX_fPR_

https://youtu.be/2YGd3UFSfKo?si=vLNmLhWhgqScRIVS

PROF ~ Devil'$ Gate

https://youtu.be/aH9M3G4lGqY?si=va0nNManTQhy3Cl8

Kerli ~ 🐲Alchemise

https://youtu.be/h--Ny6HeVgY?si=0ybgGdYmzrrgbsvj

Tiny Desk Concert ~ 311

https://youtu.be/MgTDLlDY_yY?si=ccFK26inAGlMMN2j

Emilee South ~ Control

https://youtu.be/gHaXapDWxZc?si=Rw4jWoO7Niw1CSS5

INZO ~ Just A Mirage

https://youtu.be/9LbFU_gBQKA?si=l4zsD-QQu61WGNJM

PROF ~ Spellbound

https://youtu.be/pYXuSGZdjGM?si=KGDiM0zxxDaWenM8

Sia ~ I Forgive You

https://youtu.be/QnhQmnDH1oA?si=Nfg25jSLhcXikoUr

Lil Dicky ~ HAHAHA

https://youtu.be/ku6A5w6uWtY?si=RtUp3i3kxNWaDU1s

Zoltan Kaszas ~ The Eclipse Burned My Eyes

https://youtu.be/eHEoG1SRByg?si=hTVkpObkR0CdNAxa

🎶some things

look better

just passing

through🎵🙃

I'm certain Elon's got some little site set up somewhere in these here interwebz, where anyone can follow me anywhere, without leaving a digital impression of their attention. But, still, the reptilians use my apparent (supposed🙄) lack of visibility to poke at some lifelongheld and parentally established insecurity regarding validation. It really is a shame they're such a dark force, in and around the rest of us, seeking only to siphon and destroy that which makes our lives pleasant and enjoyable.

MileyCyrus💗 ~ Used to be Young❤️‍🩹

https://youtu.be/IZ3XMOdOdKM?si=8mRV8xGR1_oBJfyR

Ginny Luke ~ Devil @ MyHeels

https://youtu.be/x9oH-ebCnDc?si=JJ8a696wXXhr9D_C

X Ambassadors ~ Follow the Sound of my Voice

https://youtu.be/_vlihdiqtew?si=oPiTox8yzMpmEi92

https://youtu.be/viFHcWtcIRM?si=6P3PgvyW26jHzDbM

It's a weird process, unraveling the clusterfuck that became my heartmind, in the wake of my family's theatrical death 24+ years ago. The most prominent inversion I'm processing right now is the way my lizard dad took control of my entire perception of my role in the "family," and singlehandedly determined whether or not I should be made to feel meaningful at any given moment, effectively establishing the illusion that he was always the parent I was most emotionally enmeshed with. I believe this was intended to further hide the reality of immediately having been raped by my real dad at birth from my all but irreparable psyche. I literally wouldn't be able to believe it.

Reality of the matter is, it was my mom that I most deeply clung to, and related with, as a small child. My dad was a bit of an arrogant prick, even in his most vulnerable states. Impossible to meaningfully bond with, no matter the person or intent. My UncleMike was his closest confidant, and even that relationship was heavily shrouded in mob energy; no delicacy anywhere to be found. {reminiscent of Porter & Aponte. I still love you guys, of course.}

Intimacy (beyond physical) was my father's deepest fear, and my mother's deepest hope. Lizard dad regularly accused lizard mom of being incapable of intimacy with him, appearing to "open up" to me about his own deep seeded insecurities surrounding rejection, making it almost impossible for me to sever my own connection with him. Lord knows I could never "abandon" his sensitive and damaged heart, especially if I felt like the only one even capable of recognizing it.

Ha ha. Joke's on me, his heart had long since stopped beating, as had hers.

Moral of the story is, lizard people are methodical, and fully committed to the bit.

Unbelievably committed.

The 'death' of my X account.🙄