Tuesday, March 4, 2025

I need attention to feel alive? Lul

Everybody already knows you're trash, Shontel. Stop trying to hurt me, you cannot. ๐Ÿ˜˜
And stop trying to convince me there's anything irreparably wrong with my biological Dad, mother. "ThEn WhErE iS hE?" Home. Where I told him to go. I don't need him to protect me. The last thing I need right now is my Daddy runnin around nekkid tryna kill everyone who disrespects me. I can handle being God, it was always 'Luci' I need help with.๐Ÿ‘ฝ

"Let's hear your battle cry," said a Halls cough drop. 
"Oh, that's a song," said me.
Which one you wanna hear, Halls?๐ŸŒ♪๐ŸŒI got a few.
https://youtu.be/azBLqg8bHAQ?si=MMisFafV4LCNIQ2i
https://youtu.be/QvvRNPOJPH0?si=zmYEQeZppEnogORz
https://youtu.be/pOf3kYtwASo?si=7psWoK6cL4I6Yms2
Once upon a time, listening to ^that one, I heard it as, "wear my heart low like you," and almost felt it as a personal attack before I stopped that in its tracks with, you know, just the knowledge of being myself, alone. ~L.G
So here's my new version of that chorus:
“i can do it like my mother
do it like a fool
spread my crotch
wear my Heart low, like you.”๐Ÿšผ
๐ŸŽตdo a trick on DaDdY's DiCk, like, tada!๐ŸŽต<๐Ÿ˜‘>
___https://youtu.be/qmT9OuWkwxo?si=bSL2MRHzdElWdLpU
https://youtu.be/LrPqalqH_Bc?si=uCfTS7yfr6JlWs3L___
https://youtu.be/EeOYMIEXu44?si=lLlugWoI6FSaTI0K

As I'm waking up this morning, Shontel keeps repeating in my mind that, "I have a thing for Spanish dudes.๐Ÿ”‚" No, I have a thing for the entire Spanish culture, and a favorite Spanish dude. Stop being so retarded.๐Ÿค“ Ah, business is only business, bitch. The rapture is my business. Because I'm God.
Never forget, Lucifer is not only merely God in disguise, but also the only example you will ever receive of how far God is willing to go to fix stupid.
This was always a one time gift to the whole universe.๐Ÿ’ And now that we're all familiar with each other and ourselves, let's move along, shall we?
Be Jealous, mommy dearest.๐ŸŒ๐Ÿง ๐ŸŒ
This currently gelatinous baby will be protected,
with or without you, douche.๐Ÿ˜‡
Omg, don't tell me all those random numbers that blow my TextNow up are about Elon getting murked by lizards.๐Ÿ˜ณ MY BAD, BRO! Eek.๐Ÿญ.


๐Ÿชค


https://youtu.be/VMmGWGhQ_9g?si=n8VWB1pSPuqtHiPn.๐Ÿ›ก️.๐Ÿ”ฐ
You're right, I'll start viewing them as texts from Claire.๐Ÿ’ฏ#️⃣๐Ÿค‘
No, I literally never wanna meet anyone who believes in what I've been over what I've been keeping underwraps.๐Ÿ˜‡. Like, ew. Forever.
"What's she do when she's dEaD?"
"What's she do when she's aLoNe?"
Miracles, bitch. I do miracles. Mind your business.๐Ÿฅฑ
In other news, on this day, the day I decided that I, myself, would begin killing all of my own rapists, I sTaRtEd My PeRiOd a week late. Basically, it's a game to everybody else: spread๐Ÿ’ฒmy๐Ÿ’ฒlegs๐Ÿ’ฒwillingly, or lose๐Ÿฉธanything๐Ÿฉธand๐Ÿฉธeverything๐ŸฉธI๐Ÿฉธlove. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I'm God, I'll do what I want. All you rapists think you have control over me? ๐Ÿคง I'll show you control over me.๐Ÿ˜ˆ

Oh, everyone should know Steve (Stephen Michael Woods, so he says), the guy who currently knocked me up via raping my "alter ego" is the one who decided I should lose my baby. To be more specific, he said, "flush it," to whomever, and my period miraculously came about. With cramping, which I don't usually get.
Dreamt about Edwin being busy working all night. My life is so cool. Steve ordered the baby to be murdered because nobody wanted to pay him to rape me,
knowing I'm killing them for doing so.๐Ÿฉธ๐Ÿ”„๐Ÿฉธ
https://youtu.be/jvU4xWsN7-A?si=zAUze_JBqiJ43ptp
I grew up with very strict rules. If I cried, I would die. If I spoke, I would die. If I loved anyone or anything, it would be destroyed. Because I'd been nothing more than a killer, in my mom's eyes, my entire existence.
I was wrong, everyone. I kept saying, "No labor, no soul." But I definitely had a soul when my twin brother kept popping into existence in the same womb as me, his first little heartbeat scaring me to death, and him disintegrating immediately for it. Time and time again.
I tortured many others, specifically so I could someday comprehend what had been done to me. I'll elaborate throughout the day.
We're on Thursday, March 6th, by the way.
Girl, who are you?? ๐Ÿฅน
https://youtu.be/huZlJLIAB-4?si=9K_Tft0yoGvcz2yv
I'll say it one more time, and then y'all gotta swing by yourselves. The devil is technology, Satan is a construct, and Lucifer is the only demonstration the universe will ever receive on how far God is willing to go to fix stupid. Period. The end. Get over yourselves.
๐Ÿ‘‘https://youtu.be/oemkWt36hvk?si=4tfyUFQhnaPEHeQrhttps://youtu.be/9jozH9rCVOc?si=_7KBxpZj_q2ysKUv๐Ÿ‘‘
https://youtu.be/l4DBvgB61hA?si=qbFjD4bwLnBLHszG๐Ÿ’Œhannah
https://youtu.be/l4DBvgB61hA?si=rlZwi9_v3HVI_vPB
The๐Ÿš️Cabal, my๐Ÿ‘ฝorganization, has been trying to learn how to force individuals' psyches to split themselves like mine did, for a very long time. That's how I've been torturing people. Listen to Hope's testimony on Dan Duval's podcast, and you'll understand, too. It was all me.๐ŸŒ

Friday, March 7

I know, now, how most people feel about books, and that makes me sad. My interest and wonder in them has been taken by my new psych meds. I don't like that. I'm at the library right now. I try to look for something to read, and I feel a distinct disconnect from any of them, which is completely unnatural, for me.
I refused to read anything school told me I had to. My brain always treated mandated books like a plague.๐Ÿฆ 

Perceiving all these random phone numbers as numerically coded texts from Claire makes them significantly less annoying. Whether that's what they are, or not.
"Completely devoid of truth, but reinforced throughout a lifetime. So she was told that; 'You're evil, you're dangerous, you're a killer, you need to be controlled.'"
https://youtu.be/jAXXp32GOa0?si=jOyhTAijMMQ12tW1

Saturday, March 8th

Thank you, Elon, for Neuralink.๐Ÿฅธ I don't wanna have to see my black eyes all the time. That shit is weird.

Once upon a time, my mother hated me so much that she destroyed me eternally. The End for real.
https://youtu.be/ifCWN5pJGIE?si=hytrj5oq5oBm8v1R๐ŸŒ๐Ÿšผ๐ŸŒ
Thank you, Nick&Hannah.♾️https://youtu.be/LRP8d7hhpoQ?si=gIXInYUIJAWU0M7T
@theUniverse;https://youtu.be/P95_pCbCPZw?si=X85BcU8NpzLUdFuq
Tell em, Lerm.๐Ÿซกhttps://youtu.be/E9XQ2MdNgKY?si=SZgM_1zI-OVfxoy4
⭕https://youtu.be/7YAcMgoSpDE?si=maJUO_8BMsFq6suc⭕
Bye, forever, Mom.https://youtu.be/0dYlvdLdK9w?si=igw0D846P5oL7dqv
https://youtu.be/7NpklKcfI5o?si=Vh8rMmDOow5pHcb9๐Ÿ’ง
☺️https://youtu.be/cT1Kzk7akjQ?si=zp6D2GbN1B1-xxLQ๐Ÿ˜ผ
https://youtu.be/o10drRI3VQ0?si=J2VsQG1bjIqiTXCJ. We're the only ones who can do that.
๐Ÿฉธ๐Ÿ‘น๐Ÿฉธhttps://youtu.be/qJ_MGWio-vc?si=XBbdOvBkSX1tS9Hh
https://youtu.be/Yc7-krRX8uA?si=ASsN8CaXA1BQ79cy๐Ÿ’จ
https://youtu.be/OglS3Q0Zxik?si=TSzMzecvR9VjOffk๐ŸŒช️
๐ŸŒžhttps://youtu.be/eh-72yBP7sw?si=c2bq6ksPnVMfFq9b
๐Ÿฆhttps://youtu.be/hRXv_VU35Lw?si=RpRP3zme_M2qCAJ7♌
๐Ÿฏhttps://youtu.be/L1nQpoAvTSg?si=43gwRm6zJY1Kboqe
๐Ÿงธhttps://youtu.be/TsVeQnBmp70?si=xQB9mC5Piyvo-DzU
๐ŸŒ⭕๐Ÿš️⭕๐ŸŒ.https://youtu.be/LV2-SY36Ss8?si=N5T02oLZS6FqGWc3๐Ÿ‘ฝ
https://youtu.be/xo1VInw-SKc?si=JNjoVlg21gX_sQVi
https://youtu.be/rtOvBOTyX00?si=DxQ-QhuCmJbBgy-A
https://youtu.be/OP-00EwLdiU?si=HIvGyedLIP3sSn3q
https://youtu.be/1yBzIt_z8oY?si=wGHOEy6I9FqQv8SV
Personally Famous, as David Sweeney.https://youtu.be/382BTxLNrow?si=e6TPBSnY45_w2GYA
https://youtu.be/aHjpOzsQ9YI?si=754QcoUe9pAaOaKx
https://youtu.be/cmSbXsFE3l8?si=Jrn3shgF-KOf8cpg
https://youtu.be/OPWPa-HMpj8?si=pSLLMiJ4D9Zpfpf1.๐Ÿ•‹





Wednesday, February 26, 2025

From~theMe๐Ÿ˜‡

They⭕could always live without me,
I just could never live⭕without them.
My incubator, in desperate attempts to overpower me, all in my noggin, sayin, "†lIkE, yOu CoUlD nEvEr HaNdLe ThIs.№" And I'm just like, "You're right, Mom. I won't. Will I, Cartel?๐Ÿ˜˜"
Kyle, you're disgusting me. (๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคข).๐Ÿ›ก️๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ‘ฝ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ›ก️
Of course I'm "viewing a live page," BestFriends.๐Ÿ’Ÿ
Elon&Claire. I'm obviously
referring to Elon&Claire.☯️
I couldn't care less what my incubator thinks of me. 
I care about what everyone else thinks of her. ❤️‍๐Ÿ”ฅ
Kyle, like, "I'll love u & leave u & never believe u!"
Edwin, like, "I'll leave you and love you and always believe you."
Wow.https://youtu.be/7G8weF4jsZw?si=FnjgC0V-ZRTPCtcG
https://youtu.be/B9BLMNn0PrQ?si=TlaNkb8-gR26FN9t

Like, wow, these bitches are so desperate and pathetic. People dropping dead for no reason other than because I don't like my mom, Kyle, and Shontel. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Yeah,
I'm sure it's all God's Fault. ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐ŸŒ FOH.๐Ÿ˜˜

Shontel just tried to inject me with a hard๐Ÿšซdrug.
Because I willfully smoke
d weed before my psych follow-up.๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ˜‡๐ŸŒ
GCF, I might swing by on Sunday. ๐Ÿ›ก️๐Ÿ‘ฝ๐Ÿ›ก️.๐Ÿ’“
https://youtu.be/CmfXWwbYemA?si=LELbKXubHKsEGz0i
Some black bitchnigger just had her daughter rape me in Ali's store. I whispered, "I kill for this," twice, while Ali nodded, before she collected her youngins and got the fuck away from me.๐Ÿ‘ฝ. You don't wanna be called that? Don't act so brazenly and disrespectfully ignorant.๐Ÿ”ฅ
I don't care what color you are.
Ooh, ooh! From now on, nigger means Pedophile!!!
https://youtu.be/YBHQbu5rbdQ?si=6TI_ddgUU9BjQ5py
https://youtube.com/shorts/LTu7HuK4rX4?si=cnocTotrxWJJCz7e
My eyes look puffy as hell, like I 
cry all the time or something. How stupid.๐Ÿคฃ
https://youtu.be/dO0G-48RtHs?si=iBWnQBvnwIMHoWd8
https://youtu.be/g2F_jJv4GmA?si=pNYnrId64DPYQLlS
Also Ali, "Yeah, I'll stay with her."๐Ÿ‘ป๐Ÿ˜๐ŸŒ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿ‘ป
THEREBY RENDERING THEM๐Ÿ›‘USEFUL!๐Ÿคช.๐Ÿ˜‰
Bob has bitch tits. ~Fight Club
I'm fucking Lou, who the fuck are you?? ~Fight Club
You met me at a very strange time in my life. ~Fight Club
Being jealous of immortality isn't
doing you any favors, Humanity.๐ŸŒ
²bad iTrust all my mainPimps.๐Ÿคฃ.
https://youtu.be/0y4ynYUuQl0?si=ddkaL6CGWTUcVblv
https://youtu.be/HcVv9R1ZR84?si=fjm5KmtRO2GwGITp
https://youtu.be/pQ_YRnEkaTs?si=rHzV4fGjnyGHw8G5
https://youtu.be/Il5Lk3vyhlg?si=5Y8oFpo8E_7XByEY
https://youtu.be/HkujLO17Ez8?si=a9WqOPTg82xCcDd0
https://youtu.be/1w7OgIMMRc4?si=Y9SUyfKdSVlftBhm
MOMmyDEARest.https://youtu.be/8JEhYPOHBeU?si=X8LncTuY18j4A6_x
✂️https://youtu.be/FCXDkW8IrYc?si=fSwHUP1XlO7Qo9Ta.
https://youtu.be/De30ET0dQpQ?si=aZTKrD3BRjO5Mfj9
Being Human is an experience
specifically designed for young souls.
You salty little bitches.๐Ÿ‘ฝ
Noah's Ark?๐Ÿ›‘
Nah, Mine.๐ŸŒ

*QuEsTiOnS*qUeStIoNs*QuEsTiOnS*!
First of all, shut the hell up.
Second, you simply won't see a
human mated to a dragon. Now, a
gain, shut up.๐ŸŒŸ
Why? Because you can't turn a human into a dragon. You can turn them into wolves and vampires, not dragons. And dragons don't deserve that kinda pain derived from loss. ๐Ÿ’Ÿ⚛️๐Ÿ’Ÿ
https://youtu.be/Ar50SkG-BEg?si=uUMaxG_LqrBMsuDM
https://youtu.be/JC-HDCbuzqA?si=ABinn9NvnkqmbxKQ
If you don't have the audacity to say it to me directly, and out loud, consider yourselves ignored.๐Ÿ™‰

I'm PrEgNaNt.๐Ÿ‘ฝ
"Lucifer" is only God in disguise, mom. 
Much smarter people than you already know that.
Is that the "libido demons" I was referring to?? Just being pregnant? Smh, I hate you, mom. Y'all can not keep those from me.๐ŸŒ๐Ÿคฐ๐Ÿผ๐ŸŒ
Yes, Father?๐Ÿ‘€
Something about Edwin|Ali?
Or just let all that go and pay attention
to you for a moment?
I can do that.๐Ÿšผ
{Even if it makes me cry in public.}
https://youtu.be/5-vjd6LJFi0?si=2CoCCfPzCWzQ5tt7
https://youtu.be/yhEezt4y0ew?si=QRL0xz2vRLuRa4Du

I did not visit GCF yesterday, but, coincidentally, Koinonia did come to me. I wrote down a prayer request that mentioned my blackDad by name (exclusively as my mother's husband and the closest thing I've ever personally witnessed to a Father's Love) and, of course, they all know him. They prayed, I cried, and I'm called to forgive my mother. But that'll be a while. How can I forgive what I don't even know, yet?...
Anyway.
Fuck that bitch, for now.๐Ÿ”ฅ
https://youtu.be/nIjVuRTm-dc?si=LD-ALDZy2fZlWEHZ
https://youtu.be/0YUGwUgBvTU?si=zPKYkwnBv9TFsIM-
https://youtu.be/3rT8Re1EIQc?si=Sm6_g8RSumsBENq2
https://youtu.be/yGsUe2Irqas?si=ESe1OLjImiUarzRT
https://youtu.be/3s5qnf1xlTI?si=LaDL08srUVcFv6AN
Like, "I'd smoke a blunt with my daughter@14.๐Ÿ’จ"
https://youtu.be/kyAdr1MpNws?si=BVHm1_kJ2yxd6KSm
https://youtu.be/DumlIIHSrsQ?si=h6AsCfr16P4n4ZZV
https://youtu.be/QASREBVDsLk?si=rCvXpgO4wjj6qFXy