I Need to be a Blogger: 2025

Sunday, June 8, 2025

Stupidity.

https://youtu.be/Sfekgjfh1Rk?si=lvv-JvgZtXFweprn

^That happened. I keep wanting to delete it all, but that wouldn't serve my intention to help people, at all. 🤗

Rules are made to be broken.

I know y'all don't track the links, fyi:

Saturday, June 14th

Some things were true. Like, the cabal stuff. Like, Jeremy and I look quite alike. Like, I envy red hair, and my cousin Kyle has some lol. Like, Thomas from Michelangelo's is a better person than I am. Never underestimate how embarrassing it is to go crazy for the better part of a decade, and then "sober up." 😵 My family is not filled with satan worshippers who have been killing me, an immortal, for my whole life. 🙄 BUT! I did feel like all those crazy things were true, for a relatively short period of time, which was taxing and exhausting. 🫩 I blame both Elon and myself, him for developing the weapons used against me, and myself for falling for them. 😮‍💨 Yes, Elon develops weapons, much more than he sells electric cars and flies rockets to space. Very effective weapons that can alter a person's entire perception of reality, with a simple tech command. All these phones and Alexas and TVs.... They can absolutely be used against us, and they are. 🤖 But what are we gonna do about it? Lol. Protest? Abstain? 😂 Fuck outta here. That's the point.

What I'm most curious about, at this point, is the reptilians. Do they actually exist? I'm inclined to think so. And do they lack souls? I'm also inclined to think so. I told my whiteDad the other day, I wanna believe they exist as an equalizer between the rest of us, to equalize that which would otherwise be impossible to equalize. Balance the light and dark in the rest of us. Make it possible to see past the scope of fame, into others' hearts. But does that make me right? No.

Saturday, May 24, 2025

Only words,

no more pictures.

Kinda like how my blog started.

Goodnight, World. 😴

Sunday, May 25th

Hm. I guess it's time to start learning how to cope with the fact that I'm tiny and ultimately insignificant, and there's nothing I can do to forcefully stop all the trafficking.

Tuesday, May 27th

Happy birthday, Sister. 🥳

♪a genius with no genes in it♪

{me>cabal}, on the inside.

Yes, I'm still capable of feeling intelligent, even after all that. 🤣 Bummer, satanic haters. I know how you work, assholes.

Someday, my posts will get back to "normal." Who knows when that will be, I don't have a best friend to overshare with. And I still feel nefariously influenced, psychologically, sometimes. Like tryna recycle Elon feelings. 🙄 The cabal needs to be dissolved, in its entirety. 🧼 Make yourself useful, Elon. Or don't, and finally convince me you're one of them, instead. I've previously only thought that when you didn't swoop in and save me. But I suppose I don't actually need saving. A whole lot of other people do, though. Go save them.

I'm realizing, this morning, the way I felt peace wash over me about Hannah when she was a baby, is the same way I've felt all the myriad of God&Luci stuff I've felt. Deeply and seemingly undeniably. Once upon a time, I prematurely stated that I don't believe in anything, I either know it or I don't. Then, seemingly the cabal figuratively dragged me all over the crazy map by my hair, effectively discrediting most everything about me. Except my heart, though. I haven't always expressed it well, but nobody can accuse me of not caring about anything.

I'm kinda thinking they habitually feed individual God complexes, and then flip script on the receptive ones, tryna convince them they are in fact the opposite, like I believe they did to me. (👽) Which often leads people like me to killing themselves, when they realize they are absent any significant affect on the world. Some people dive into the darkness they were never previously a part of. I could never. My heart never actually moved. So did I really stop loving everyone except myself, for a moment there, like I said I did? Or was that yet another psychological lie? Tryna make me feel guilty for things they forced me to feel. Hm. Just thoughts. ✍🏻💭

Thursday, May 29th

https://youtu.be/fXrpnl3NkFE?si=PK4nI-nKv0j_JV1x

That's exactly it, I've been preyed upon. In a very "hands off" kinda way. It didn't go as well as they'd hoped, but various folks out there have literally used the cabal's resources to prey on me, in particular. I don't think I'm special, in that regard. Most of us are preyed upon, in some way or another. I do think I'm special in the way I handled it, though. 🤷🏼‍♀️ Maybe not, time will tell.

Monday, May 5, 2025

I found it.🙂

https://youtube.com/shorts/Sp4ZB2vsWNg?si=bb801dodn6x-HIu2

Wednesday,, May 7th

I think the cabal tried to convince me we're them, using tactics that typically successfully lead to suicidesssssssss.

Thursday, May 8th

https://youtube.com/shorts/nvpE5bFtZEc?si=vT9LFKjBQZDfCLx4

Saturday, May 10th

@cabal;https://youtu.be/1bgpUeRpmnc?si=il-VupXxBJVImzzz

Monday, May 12th

And he has been used to

develop weapons nobody"knows" about.

I can see how the life he's created for himself could be a seemingly inescapable prison of doom and gloom... Hm.🤔

I'm glad I (kinda) pay attention to (some)

famous people, now. 🧘🏼‍♀️

Tuesday, May 13th

♪it's easier to blame someone else♪

Intellectual integrity is rough.

Sure, I was (am) almost certainly targeted.

But I should've been smarter than

psychological force and manipulation.

🌐

Most times I see someone wearing Duke gear, I tell them that school started sending me mail in 3rd grade. Because I'm smart. What I hadn't pieced together is that was the year after Cassidy (a classmate) molested me in school. That's the cabal's game. Corruption and sexual abuse, presented as a package deal with the system. "Take your trauma, and follow us.👹"

https://youtube.com/shorts/ZGgby7IMZV8?si=ICgbnBdc-dlJWy5m

"They" knew. "They" always know. "They" are the ones paying ungodly amounts of attention to everyone, and playing god with our lives.

And, now, after last year, I know how much worse trauma than my own feels, so I've got that going for me. I can't think about all the very real trafficked children (people) without tearing up.

Most of y'all would probably wanna bury Elon under a jail, if you knew what I'm all but certain his intellect has been used to do. I just wanna give him a hug and smoke a blunt with him and Claire. Ask them some real life questions that have nothing to do with evil shit.

Like, "How do you tolerate fame?"

And, "Where do you really live?"

And, "How many clones does it take to be you?"

And, "Please tell me y'all are secretly perfect for each other.👀"

Wednesday, May 14th

"That's not a question.""And it never will be." 💝♾️💝

(Maybeh)

https://youtube.com/shorts/0p3bmXxolzM?si=QXoHfG2-Qak2Cv4B

I have so many apologies to make. 😳 Pretty much everything that makes me feel like that {😳} needs an apology. It's a lot. 😂.😏 All in due time. I'm still in no hurry. Fuck that concept. "tImE iS rUnNiNg OuT!👹" No, it ain't. Not for all the really real people who really love me. 🙂

Like Tad and Cam (from a distance), CAW folks and families, Boris&Alicia, good Lord.🤦🏼‍♀️ So many. Hannah. 🥲

Nobody can say, "But she never stopped loving you," because I did; I stopped loving everyone except myself for a minute, there. Because that's what I had to do to survive. #Truth.

I was drowning in a mind full of lies,

with nobody to anchor myself to. 🌊

I think Elon is their version of a living God.

Their worship turned him into a war ship.

I don't idolize him, I love him. And (iThink) he found me.

Even if all I am is someone.

Friday, May 16th

Famous folk, y'all just gonna have to take one blanket apology for all the crazy about y'all. I ain't got the time, and the apology IS just as "loud" as the insult(s). 🌐🗣️🌐 I'm still crazy about Elon, but that's just cause he's awesome.

Wednesday, May 21st

Could call it Blunt Blunts,

or something like that.😚💨

Thursday, May 22nd

Saturday, April 12, 2025

Find the Flaw

In My Plan.

Lol. This is worth copy/pasting.🤣

https://youtu.be/gir1uMPwZm4?si=8ntnRwqoJDzDJ_6N

Wassup, fellow weirdo?👀 (Trump wrote that^url👾)

💓https://youtube.com/shorts/3xdQff12oqw?si=A53D_OW29FYqr2K7

Most of my technological interactions are with Elon&Claire,

except when people pay extra to do so, themselves.🌐🧠🌐

Like, when it's tailored, it's usually those two lovebugs.

Not 24/7/365, but like, when it's acted upon, rather than

algorithms&automations. Codes. Programs. Anyway. ✌🏻

As much as one thinks, Elon does.

Sunday, April 13th (backwardsπ)

Google. I think Google's got our address right, not us. Lol.

But my reasoning doesn't work, because they've got businesses across the street on S Memorial, too, despite the direction of travel on that side of the street being northbound. 🤷🏼‍♀️ So who's to say?

You're still my favorite president, Donald.🏆

I adore the teamwork wit

h Elon in fuckin shit up.✊🏻

And pissing everyone off. Lol.

I keep telling them

there's gotta be

a bigger plan.

🌐

I'm pretty sure a couple years ago, when Elon explained to the whole universe that negative engagement is still engagement, and algorithms respond to engagement, giving you more of what you engage with, he was talking directly to me lol. I was excessively stressed, at the time.💥🌐🏚️🌐💥

Whenever it was. I lived alone for the first time.🛡️

*bewildered(at the time) safety*

That's also when he&Claire started telling me about myself, unlike anyone else ever would. But they've done so using technology, from a distance, so I just look batshit instead of agonizingly awesome.🤪

I think the most significant thing I've done in my psyche has been removing myself, personally, from a whole lot that was trying to hold me back, in a very small expectation of self. Even though

my expectations for myself have always been lofty.

I've just never been allowed to demonstrate myself.

Stop abusing me and see wassup.

https://youtu.be/CsZgNSYnHZw?si=RIBJ3QLs9GOnoQBo

https://youtu.be/Uw-eAvEbffM?si=wtK6eN6mi9aunLy7

^That sounds like ai trying to sound like JBP.

*Fact:

Tuesday, April 15th

That's a mannerism or characteristic or quirk I got from my vacuous mother. I think I carry it better. It's probably the Love that really sets it off, y'know?

Angie's magic is artistic in nature; music, photography, her environment. Joseph's magic is more intellectual in nature. That's why the ins and outs of big business don't intimidate him.

Wednesday, April 16th

We're, what, 3 months into being medicated?

Friday, April 18th

Every time I see someone larger than me, my brain is like, "sEe?" As if other people's contentment with being so out of shape is meant to make me feel better about my gaining weight all year. 🙄 That's not how this works. I'm not comfortable in my own body, anymore.

Saturday, April 19th

https://youtu.be/D6RkeBGAJ8A?si=H1MslsWUs3A3JAuF

Were you talking about me?

You must've been talking about me at the end.

Tomorrow is my favorite holiday!#420 😚💨

Monday, April 21st

Oh, how much simpler it is not taking things personally, while medicated. My mind is foggier, but I don't obsess about the very real trafficking, anymore. That's probably not a great thing. Like, good for me, but bad for them. I don't like that. I'm supposed to be trying, for them. I am trying for them, nevermind me and my rambling.

Wednesday, April 23rd

Y'all wonder why your kids are "badass" little assholes. It's because y'all are so defiantly perpetuating pedophilia. There's no separation between child and adult. You have lost all authority.

Thursday, April 24th

I can't believe people ruin entire lives over orgasms.

https://youtu.be/hDkdfnVSA7g?si=XVVe0yE_SySPV_zh

Sunday, April 27th

So I see a lot of my old CaptainD's co-workers at my McDonald's because we're right next door to each other, right? And Dj, the one I perceived as a Thomas baby, just came in for the second time today, and y'all, this guy looks nothing like either of us. But his tattoos mention a Jennifer, which tied a mental link to Thomas, and I feel retarded. 💁🏼‍♀️ The Christian guy from Grifols that my crazy told me was Edwin and I's son comes through the drive thru every now and then, and I feel bad about that, too. What I wanna know is how this happens. How? Not why, how.

Also, all the tiny black spiders have taken a liking to me, and I consider it a compliment cause of Billie Eilish. Lol. https://youtu.be/Ah0Ys50CqO8?si=FazSZoyLtkgqVfxy

Tuesday, April 29th

I donno why that top one is so tiny,

but you can still read it if you zoom in.

An elementary school bus just passed me, and all I gotta say is nobody appreciates those drivers enough. 🤯.🙉! Ew. To master their emotions enough to get every one of those little demons to and fro, alive, every day, is something I'm trying to accomplish as we speak.

https://youtu.be/fbuN0uvHmW4?si=5IYKO53DBfAk0qfI

https://youtu.be/qI_j7QWb7jo?si=-2iJTgMZnNPJou7P

Thursday, May 1st

Wednesday, April 2, 2025

ApRiL🌊fOoLs🌬️

"I believe what you're saying about El*"...

"Why? Lol."

https://youtu.be/pZR0vlYmVck?si=6P5JzjWAS-IAadqC

Elon, please tell all the boys I said, "No."

Thursday, April 3rd

https://youtu.be/VIzlEyeGAhA?si=-yeMVgkwJcJBd8se

https://youtu.be/KY44zvhWhp4?si=FYDACdu7VPLKEeSP

https://youtu.be/27Q6q5M8SC8?si=ENpxtnFmp-4komNn

https://youtu.be/vOZFiX6hDXQ?si=kMJEVJ21qZ6lzyNO

Friday, April 4th

"Go to work and try; to wanna be alive."

That's my new personal everyday goal.

It's all I have left to offer the world.

https://youtu.be/ye6tNgUIYe4?si=ZZ2vdC_qQVjh5xG9

https://youtu.be/c2MLF-dncRk?si=bRNpcA8E6uR29I5a

Saturday, April 5th

🤣 Y'mbetter take my word for it.🌤️

Cause if I let my heart hit the floor,

you're all dead with me.💔.🤡

It's supposed to be us against the world, ain't it, Tenea? 🥲 We're coworkers. Stop being mean to me.~And she ain't the only one. Just the only one brave enough to do it two days in a row, so, kudos for that.✊🏻 (I'm not saying that rudely. I mean it from the heart, not the asshole.)

There's McDonald's' collective "compliment sandwich."🥪 Corporate, consider your constructive criticism to be "severely lacking in competitive pricing, considering quality of product," rather than, "stop hurting my feelings.👽"

Y'all shoulda thought Elon was so much cooler than you did LMFAO.🍿

Now he's my best friend, and there's nothing anyone can do about it.❣️💯❣️

"And then ya kick 'em in the throat, like *that*."~Segura🛡️

https://youtu.be/mOO5qRjVFLw?si=0V_KUA6EeZjcbBZe

Sunday, April 6th

Famous people generally think people who idolize them are morons because the famous people already know all the things, big and little, that the famous people are lying about & all their crazy little zealots are believing.

I know that I am absolutely capable of being pleasant directly in the face of disrespect, I've done it countless times with the people I do so foolishly love. So why can't I do it for 8 hours at a time for complete strangers at my job? I've never been good at that. Why? 🌀CuStOmErSeRvIcE🌀 never stuck on me. I accidentally cuss in front of customers all the time, like there's no alternative mode of function. 🙄😓 Ew.

I'm gonna lose my job if I don't find that switch a

nd flip it, real quick. All sweet, no sour. 🌐😇🌐

Monday, April 7th

Y'all can feel the trafficked version of me in your hearts, like a mate, but I can't feel y'all in mine. Elon's cheated kiss is the closest thing I've ever felt to a mating bond. We won't get into the specifics of why that was possible, publicly. 🙃

Anyway. Cool. 🥶 *cOmInG sOoN*⛈️

So I'm riding the bus, after a micro hurricane blew through, and I notice the water splash up real high from deep puddles we're driving through. And then, suddenly, I start feeling afraid of getting in a wreck for the first time riding these busses. The kind of afraid I'm not used to feeling. I call bullshit.

Tuesday, April 8th

https://youtu.be/JVMgaMSJUl0?si=WNgdc5hoJikjl38e

These are my versions of "prayer requests,"

and my heart about them.🛡️❤️‍🔥🛡️.🌐👽🌐

Thursday, April 10th

I comprehend the fact that there are a lot of folks mad at me for "being Lucifer."👽All I have to say is get over it, or go die. Bitches, I'm God. I can do what I want.🎭 I got people to heal, you selfish pieces of shit. Leave me alone.🛡️❤️‍🔥🛡️

https://youtu.be/nzCIeNhw8oE?si=3tb-Z73pEJpi7Yoe

https://youtu.be/XGGWhOUYObc?si=On5PqeCCaWvhxU5K

https://youtu.be/XXpjUePKFGk?si=PSzf_kNbxxcfEwQM

https://youtu.be/3Om3_k1T6vU?si=QetoSdkHRoviFo-q

https://youtu.be/Jtauh8GcxBY?si=CTGtB7bIXrDuZTeB

https://youtu.be/dkfZT8deoIc?si=ddVn5FydTJ_AbPWI

https://youtube.com/shorts/67Oo9X9B8ZE?si=9xU9ZJGudWm2q2iOh.🫡

That Rico guy just tried to tell me I'm stuck on Edwin, as if I didn't already know that. The ways he and Stephan Jesse Martin changed my life, only a future husband could come close. And he ain't here.

Call me stuck. Like actual glue. Like a little sister neither of them will ever get rid of.🌟