https://youtu.be/hTMrlHHVx8A?si=fEb_jT5N0WufJJu6
I ignored plenty of insanity from him before he felt perfect for a moment.
I can do that again.
Apparently I'll be talking to these losers until they're gone. This sucks.
After so long of being slaughtered into protecting the scum of the earth, I think it's more than past my time to decide what's worth protecting, and what's not. Or who is not.
https://youtu.be/kXYiU_JCYtU?si=azxs9I4mrbU8GRc_
How much did you get paid to let Jake win, Tyson? 🤨
I know you're getting old, but nah. 😗
~Saturday~
Everyone knows I don't care what percent of the nonsense has been fact and what percent has been literally lied into my brain, right? Yeah, I'm constantly remembering what I've said, and riddled with insecurity about exactly everything. And so? How is that any different from walking around perfectly unaware that I'm always having sex and playing with blood? That some amount of people all over the globe were actively worshipping an aspect of myself I didn't even know existed until a week ago? I've been used and abused for my whole life, mostly by my own "family," and I'm supposed to care whether my efforts to free myself are untangling real lies or quoting active liars? That would be pretty dumb. Am I supposed to be so embarrassed that I just shut it all up and forget ever even trying to figure out how to be happy?
Spectacular, we've more than proven how effective constant abuse is.
Now, what?
I'm pretty sure I've never been married, in any iteration of my perpetually stagnant life, and that everything I thought about Ashby was yet another slew of handcrafted delusions, just for me. Anything to keep me talking crazy, and any kinda miserable will do, right, cretins? Anything.
Fact: my eyeballs whole turn black, and nobody else's do.
Fact: my "family" has been actively abusing me to weaponize my uniqueness.
Fact: reptilians do not have souls.
Fact: child sex trafficking is rampant.
Fact: I hate my life.
I'm probably only ever wrong about everything that's not those 5 facts.
~Football Day~
It's halftime in the Chiefs~Bills game, which we're watching instead of the Falcons~Broncos game because for some reason the NFL likes financially abusing their fans, instead of being a morally sound entity. And I keep shaking my head at the insanity of the notion that Ashby was in any way the man of my dreams, because nothing about his behavior is appealing to me, outside of that space that existed just long enough for us to have sex. You know... How it always goes. "Shhh, yes, that one is perfect. You should give em that part of you you're absolutely sick of giving away. They'll still be there tomorrow, I'm sure." 🙄 I hate this whole world.
Yeah, I smile and look pretty, and apparently give way too many people whatever
the hell they want from me, by lifelong and widely utilized psychological coercion...
But I hate all of you.
Professional sports: Charge people for tickets to the game. Body space, on site. Personal involvement in the event. NOT for sitting at home on their own couch trying to watch the event on a screen they already paid for, streamed by a provider they probably already pay every month for. Crooks.
EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN DOES NOT MEAN YOU SHOULD.
Also, I googled Kelce to refresh my memory on his #, and the search results were basically a shit ton of, "wAsTaYlOrSwIfTaTtHeGaMe?"
And all I have to say to that, people of Earth, is, "Get. A fucking. Life. 😒"
New rule: "being poor" is not aCrImE. 😑
Except the fact that, apparently, he and Kodak both like to freestyle rap. That's appealing. But I like freeflowing creativity from anyone, that's nothing special.
~Monday~
If I'm caught between illusion and "delusion", and subscribing to the illusion would be the death of all of us, why wouldn't I start believing the "delusions"? People get paid to mislead me. I would be stupid to take everything at face value.
When it comes to sex/having a significant other, I fully intend to be the reason sex trafficking comes to a screeching halt throughout the universe. If the guy, whoever it may be, isn't capable of either helping me accomplish that, or at the very least sincerely supporting me while I figure out how, he has no business entertaining the notion of being with me, physically or otherwise. And that's the end of that.
{and, in my "crazy's" defense, Ashby is batshit crazy, too. 😮💨}
~Tuesday~
All I ever think about is everything nobody ever talks about.
And, Ashby, stop telling people you were drunk. Dumbass. 🙄
https://youtu.be/H_hRUE-lXXs?si=7KIzcMx97DcWEzjw
Can y'all believe? Tonight's solace was found in the fact that wherever Elon is, he's happy. With Claire and kids. Not wherever everyone else thinks he is, at any given moment, just because he's famous.
But actually home. Happy. Lucky him, I'm happy for them.
https://youtu.be/fVIh1MFWDVw?si=yKReGB2EjZPDjDEd
https://youtu.be/rHqpSTslyu8?si=v0gO4t9mtGzaWysB
https://youtu.be/8cXPoQ5WalM?si=hSUld-EK9jODkVdk
https://youtu.be/PiBy_WhWYBY?si=8I6B5Xqh4KmQxZ0B
https://youtu.be/PVjiKRfKpPI?si=yGHyP46M5xyIyZE6
https://youtu.be/AHDtXqjgEj4?si=RWN4F8FeLOos3fEX
~Wednesday~
I just wrote Ashby a note apologizing for my insanity vomiting all over him.
https://youtu.be/KWs_vAwgZwU?si=PpcWjucKZVxwzial
~Thursday~
And that brings the total of people I've consciously chosen to involve myself with, sexually, to FOUR in the last precisely 3 years. I was with Justin from about exactly 3 years ago, to 2/20/22. Ish. Then Edwin at the shelter, Nick once, and Ashby once.
Only ever because I was trying to convince myself they were the one for me.
The rest of y'all are just tramps for no reason.
~Friday.ish~
~Saturday, again~
This is gonna be a venn diagram.ish:
I told Greg a few days ago, "Pick someone, anyone. I would kill my family for them."
~Football Day, again~
Me in FL, VA, &GA: (surrounded by my own family)
😭 nobody could literally ever love me!🆘
Greenville, NC: 🌐 Bitch, come here. Let the
Home of Area51 Truman Show you who you are.🪞
Me, 17 years later: I don't know what I was thinking, that's totally MsJackie.
What, that? That's a beagle named Bella. Definitely not the same thing that was
the little orange kitten named Bella that I briefly owned while I lived with Tim &Lo.
And that "poor little calico" is just that.
A random cat that happened across my path with Nick,
getting chewed up relentlessly by reptilian fleas. No big deal. Nothing for me to pity.
My family: NO, YOU ARE ONE OF US, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!! 🔥👿🔥
Every Freemason, the CIA, and, like, 20% of the residents of Greenville: Fuck off.😀
I just told Nick that I assume the abuse from my family, whether direct or indirect, will only increase until they're dead, seeing as I am no longer falling under their spell. That I may not ever know what is or is not actually happening, at any given time, but that I now know that my family does not love me, and that has been the
most significant factor, all along. "So bear with me. ...Please."
https://youtu.be/HJ1DHhobVVg?si=UQRZezX-uQHG1REm
And Neil deGrasse Tyson is one of the most intelligent Freemasons.🌐🧠🌐
https://youtu.be/OGT7xVtC7co?si=i4vzqDNT3asAHMT-
I said 20% only because 20% of the right people could easily flatline 80% of the wrong ones, not because I actually know what percentage of my local population
feel a personal claim of protection over me.
Ronald Leon Grice, myHousemates, theWests,
PCDC, and "MrBeast" absolutely do, though. 🏴☠️
It may not look like I've saved humanity, yet, but I've absolutely saved
some people. Just by the shattered declarations of my lonesome heart.🛡️🌐🩵🌐🛡️
I've saved Nick from Hannah, Ashby from Sadie, Ron from Angie, Karisa from SteveJo,
Abby from Philip, Ami from Jeremy, Chris from Ashley, Chelsea from Kyle, etc.
That's a lotta wins.
Skylar's Dad &I would both prefer she be temporarily dead, than
subjected to the horrors of the cretins' final gasps of life. We'll take all that.🥷🏿👽.🍟
The "Area51" in Nevada is literally only what you can see when you fly over it.
There is nothing serious at that location. Justa buncha lizard sand.🏜️.
And you could literally never reach this location without clearance or dying, one.
That means my bio"family," mostly, as I'm not sure too many others are that stupid.
If you'd like to sacrifice yourselves trying, we are all so very pleased to assist you.
https://youtu.be/TDaC_O1Oyyc?si=sytSupl_rYQU5-bu
https://youtu.be/kEOctaHwmbc?si=RrV1-ITKh-mkWEEv
https://youtu.be/35yALr_opeg?si=B-WRg-w4UY5YqqPo
The only biomembers with cLeArAnCe are Hannah, Sadie, and my mother,
but they have to appear as a cat, a dog, and a "stranger" I'd prefer.🖕🏻❤️🔥🖕🏻.
I hope those ³"beds" are comfy "beds" to die in.💤
https://youtu.be/KROF9q1hMgc?si=W3EPmJvGrjZXLglP👩🏼💻
https://www.youtube.com/live/KM9M5O6u3vc?si=-jX3TlnUrkqQgDbGod📣
(^they're Australian vampires.🤫.🗻)🗣️
https://youtu.be/m_0-hXcPfRM?si=mZfOfbCs-DRTE0oV
Said by me, on MsJackie's TikTok live earlier tonight:
Invincibilitycomeswithspiritualauthenticity.👑
Maybe my "psychotic breaks" are actually t
he manifestations of the integration of myShadow.👽.🩵
https://youtu.be/yGRtgnPqGGs?si=dqd5sdWEG03kUTgA
https://youtu.be/nbD4q9wXr9Y?si=cNN1mjVLAgGLapK-
I had previously stated that "every" life ended "prematurely" would be revived,
and that's not quite accurate. Any life that was "ended prematurely" in
a direct effort to protect innocent others has no business being revived.⛩️.
🎵terrors don't prey on innocent victims. trust me, darlinG🎵~💭🐉s.🛡️🆎🛡️
I cannot fangirl enough over the ease with which dragons handle reptilians. 🤣🤤
https://youtu.be/5Dj3jkXAEeo?si=yj1L0OgJB78_YzaJ
My sister's sperm donor wanted me to parrot, "God doesn't do necromancy," until I believed all the lives ended by them were hopelessly lost.
Lives like Leslie Artois's. Can y'all imagine??? 🤯T
he narcissistic insanity the cretins suffer from.🛑
Not long ago, 5 days or so, I coulda swore I heard Kodak's gun go off in Ashby's room.
We were already not really talking anymore by that point, so I just kinda mumbled to Eric, "You heard that, right?" And then I heard Ashby cough, and a minute later I heard Kodak speak, so I was like, to myself, "Oh, aight.👌🏻"
And that was the extent of that experience. That was all I needed to know.
And I've mentioned it 0 times, until just now lol.
The females in my bloodline looove some useless gossip.
https://youtu.be/qzK8AemhEn8?si=Zj_N0_cN3Mw9e_Exbloodline
https://youtu.be/qCDvSDgxUpU?si=Fhhy-jqrtUXDucCo
https://youtu.be/21Nx72OTHIU?si=tn-17sK-DiFsBu8X
😦https://youtu.be/eJnQBXmZ7Ek?si=hOIFbhLXbDAbr7d3😳
https://youtu.be/ywvRgGAd2XI?si=FImbT8MAkaWasn9s
https://youtu.be/ktBMxkLUIwY?si=1-GI9yvmd6edjn3k
https://youtu.be/r_9Kf0D5BTs?si=-z1YzhwJY-6BYtCk
https://youtu.be/HDI9inno86U?si=p29BysH9J8LSbvGTp
https://youtu.be/FuXNumBwDOM?si=hpVpumVAEx13exIW
~Monday, again~
My mother thinks she's so cool for marrying a black man from (read: raised in) the ghetto. 🙄 (Not "the hood," the ghetto. I feel like that's an important distinction. "The hood" has functional family units. In the ghetto, everyone just out there flying by the seat of their pants. Kinda literally.) He hates every last one of you cretins, mother. Grices have hearts, you just never cared about them. They are not your militant "pawns".🤍_🤍.
I'm pretty sure Edwin and that honey eyed kid are in fact fraternal
twins, and Shontel is the other one's forever person. 🤔 That makes sense.
Do not be something I need to protect myself from.
It was so simple, all along. 🌐👽🌐 .🔓•
https://youtu.be/LT3EWCbh4Oo?si=Atuv7kHWmUm0ZuNp
Oh, snap, I literally did kill everyone at the shelter, purely out of spite at Edwin. 😬 My bad.https://youtu.be/6pjiz_t4i6g?si=ORb8KY_N-n9-FVJw
without getting a facefull of dirt."~a soundbyte.😳.🙈
About my apparently alarming relationship with theCartel.🫢
We really did meet in elementary school. Mexicans had a long time to plan.
🫧https://youtu.be/TnoWOgAD054?si=MJc_vb0DvU8h-CEE
🥽https://youtu.be/T1c6fgwaF-Q?si=99jS5X2_xHung6Qz
🪦https://youtu.be/vFR8Z_U_ICE?si=BCx14pE-hvNWOwiG.
💀https://youtu.be/DXGelmwqfm4?si=JF5QtLcc0ipmLJXK.
🌐😃🌐https://youtu.be/LV2-SY36Ss8?si=aY0cXT1KeC5XIHi1.😇
Every time they eat a wing on Hot Ones, a lizard inserts its tongue into their intestines.
That's why the end of Scarlett Johansson's could make an aware bitch cum. 😳 .✖️fuckthemlizards.
None of those famous folks actually enjoy this. They are, however, willing to publicly subject themselves to such an obvious problem, in an effort to help me save humanity, so that's really nice of them.💓 The host is obviously a vampire.💯
The cretins were shamelessly and quite obviously racist, before they learned that my mother's Mate is a black man. It was a bit of a learning curve, for them, but that was when/how they started brainstorming how they could exploit them black people in their favor, rather than perhaps trying to learn how to change their silly little hearts about generational and fundamental bullshit.💩
Obviously black people were long repressed because
white people felt threatened by their strength,
their potential, and their God Given Gifts.☄️.⚡
🪤👽https://youtu.be/BavD7mTiUxc?si=fAaPh9HZHPnYDKYHA!🔥🌐🔥
Y'all "cAn'T sEe" a difference between full blown dragons and reptilians?
Dragons have wings, for one.🪽 And their tongues are not literally designed to eat shit.🦎.🫣
https://youtu.be/rTr-F5MI56A?si=J7_MBm2EC-PaGVxA
In this video, I feel like Billie unusually eloquently expresses
what it's been like, for me, growing up under my parents' con
trol; in direct abuse to a perfectly-helpless_against-us people: actual humans.
https://youtu.be/V9PVRfjEBTI?si=P-kwQYdx044mQXru
And this song is like the"mes" to the realest Elon, that one time I lived alone.🕋.🗽.🔰
https://youtu.be/YBHQbu5rbdQ?si=jcVNqKO4PS2q5cZO
Edwin&I.https://youtu.be/uOYj7WfJQD8?si=-dZNDJN2Nen20SCz🎭
marriaGe.https://youtu.be/5GL9JoH4Sws?si=F6CFBB5bsgexfJZq😶🌫️
The only reason Kamala "dIdN't WiN tHe ElEcTiOn" is because
she didn't feel like taking office on a handful of lies, she would
much rather clear all her air before being President. Trump, on the other hand,
has no such qualms with bait and switching an entire nation.🥇😏
https://youtu.be/uO59tfQ2TbA?si=QytGEjbQ8xM2KFyReference.
If my incestuous and genocidal Pedophile parents were not so determined
to strip me of any semblance of myself forever, "Edwin Deras's"Family&I
woulda saved the world before us kids reached middle school.
Done. Easy. Small project, light work. But, no. 😮💨.🖕🏻♾️🖕🏻
🍀https://youtu.be/0C-dNgypA5M?si=2o3IhJjRTYpf4EJ4{🛡️🕯️🛡️}⁴
https://youtu.be/nBF7a8042K8?si=lCPZEBod4WocGsYg
¿Y'all familiar with palindromes?💃🏿https://youtu.be/KEG7b851Ric?si=mBvGpBtcr7r4ot5W💃🏼
It's sheer extraGodly luck that Nick and Ashby are siblings who landed siblings.
Made it that much easier to wrap my headspace around the EdwinhasaTWIN thing.😱
And the Shontelwasneverastranger thing.🙏🏿 And the IchooseTHEMnotmy"family" thing.🌐👽🌐
https://youtu.be/4CUKELDoYIQ?si=K1r4KevgcShaT4dj
Ohhh, that makes much more sense. Baltes&Artois.💍
🧿⭕🧿https://youtu.be/v08qmr8m_-w?si=ji-XiD6DvqIp-ts4
https://youtu.be/6bMmhKz6KXg?si=fTy0Gi4rm4qBD5WU🎉
🔓https://youtu.be/nZ0ypBI_ppo?si=oPHUJ-lXhJ-b3LWE🔓
https://youtu.be/mix9YfaaNa0?si=c2riS-IOlKw3I3fl
Oh, word. Baltes&Artois, and that cute kid who operated the balcony camera, along with his redheaded sister, are all dragons. (I know their names, I just can't remember atm.🫥) Tyra &Kalaan, as I noted a while ago, are vampires, like myself. Come to think of it, the Franklins are almost certainly dragons, as well.😃 Cool.🩵
💒https://youtu.be/LRP8d7hhpoQ?si=BUzy7vwc1uPQbqNA💒
👻The cretins used the lizards against their church.🤯.😐.👿.😐.😑___
https://youtu.be/wIft-t-MQuE?si=Xn1sC5IC-DEQvhn7
https://youtu.be/k3zimSRKqNw?si=E-81bfSpcnadjU8Q
https://youtu.be/DEqsbl_kgzE?si=GMzknnqKs48n3GPD
The cretins couldn't figure out how to eliminate Tad.&.Cam from my life, without dying for it. That was the first time they had to get logistically creative.👽. So we "moved" to Virginia for a handfula months, where they then took Carla and her family away from me, drowned me under the guise of an ocean "baptism," and left me, revived but orphaned, in some unfamiliar land. While they all hauled ass to Georgia, where my sister's sperm donor had plenty of "backup." Including his little brother's mate's daughter, MiLeYcYrUs. 🙄
https://youtu.be/53tgVlXBZVg?si=jEDAg9xbxTaXSIuB
https://youtu.be/a5i-KdUQ47o?si=gJfpzSYvuxolpW4W
Boy, it must suck to be a cretin, right about now. Losers.
https://youtu.be/ojALOvvm1-0?si=gnMklvT24ZbuiGTW
https://youtu.be/BIfvzBTRgXU?si=T5Zd4UEb1XdaWA2N
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