Outliving the cretins💤

Hannah apparently tried to stab my baby, again, being that Nick's at work, and my reactive thought to her was, "You can't hurt me." But I felt the sharp pain, so obviously that can't be true. So I settled on, "You cannot damage me. 😑" And I don't care what you use Ashby for. I told Dyce last night, "Nobody who lives here is a hateful piece of shit. So if their energy is giving off hateful piece of shit vibes, I know it's not real."

https://youtu.be/hTMrlHHVx8A?si=fEb_jT5N0WufJJu6

I ignored plenty of insanity from him before he felt perfect for a moment.

I can do that again.

Apparently I'll be talking to these losers until they're gone. This sucks.

After so long of being slaughtered into protecting the scum of the earth, I think it's more than past my time to decide what's worth protecting, and what's not. Or who is not.

https://youtu.be/kXYiU_JCYtU?si=azxs9I4mrbU8GRc_

How much did you get paid to let Jake win, Tyson? 🤨

I know you're getting old, but nah. 😗

~Saturday~

Everyone knows I don't care what percent of the nonsense has been fact and what percent has been literally lied into my brain, right? Yeah, I'm constantly remembering what I've said, and riddled with insecurity about exactly everything. And so? How is that any different from walking around perfectly unaware that I'm always having sex and playing with blood? That some amount of people all over the globe were actively worshipping an aspect of myself I didn't even know existed until a week ago? I've been used and abused for my whole life, mostly by my own "family," and I'm supposed to care whether my efforts to free myself are untangling real lies or quoting active liars? That would be pretty dumb. Am I supposed to be so embarrassed that I just shut it all up and forget ever even trying to figure out how to be happy?

Spectacular, we've more than proven how effective constant abuse is.

Now, what?

I'm pretty sure I've never been married, in any iteration of my perpetually stagnant life, and that everything I thought about Ashby was yet another slew of handcrafted delusions, just for me. Anything to keep me talking crazy, and any kinda miserable will do, right, cretins? Anything.

Fact: my eyeballs whole turn black, and nobody else's do.

Fact: my "family" has been actively abusing me to weaponize my uniqueness.

Fact: reptilians do not have souls.

Fact: child sex trafficking is rampant.

Fact: I hate my life.

I'm probably only ever wrong about everything that's not those 5 facts.

~Football Day~

It's halftime in the Chiefs~Bills game, which we're watching instead of the Falcons~Broncos game because for some reason the NFL likes financially abusing their fans, instead of being a morally sound entity. And I keep shaking my head at the insanity of the notion that Ashby was in any way the man of my dreams, because nothing about his behavior is appealing to me, outside of that space that existed just long enough for us to have sex. You know... How it always goes. "Shhh, yes, that one is perfect. You should give em that part of you you're absolutely sick of giving away. They'll still be there tomorrow, I'm sure." 🙄 I hate this whole world.

Yeah, I smile and look pretty, and apparently give way too many people whatever

the hell they want from me, by lifelong and widely utilized psychological coercion...

But I hate all of you.

Professional sports: Charge people for tickets to the game. Body space, on site. Personal involvement in the event. NOT for sitting at home on their own couch trying to watch the event on a screen they already paid for, streamed by a provider they probably already pay every month for. Crooks.

EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN DOES NOT MEAN YOU SHOULD.

Also, I googled Kelce to refresh my memory on his #, and the search results were basically a shit ton of, "wAsTaYlOrSwIfTaTtHeGaMe?"

And all I have to say to that, people of Earth, is, "Get. A fucking. Life. 😒"

New rule: "being poor" is not aCrImE. 😑

Except the fact that, apparently, he and Kodak both like to freestyle rap. That's appealing. But I like freeflowing creativity from anyone, that's nothing special.

~Monday~

If I'm caught between illusion and "delusion", and subscribing to the illusion would be the death of all of us, why wouldn't I start believing the "delusions"? People get paid to mislead me. I would be stupid to take everything at face value.

When it comes to sex/having a significant other, I fully intend to be the reason sex trafficking comes to a screeching halt throughout the universe. If the guy, whoever it may be, isn't capable of either helping me accomplish that, or at the very least sincerely supporting me while I figure out how, he has no business entertaining the notion of being with me, physically or otherwise. And that's the end of that.

{and, in my "crazy's" defense, Ashby is batshit crazy, too. 😮‍💨}

~Tuesday~

All I ever think about is everything nobody ever talks about.

And, Ashby, stop telling people you were drunk. Dumbass. 🙄

https://youtu.be/H_hRUE-lXXs?si=7KIzcMx97DcWEzjw

Can y'all believe? Tonight's solace was found in the fact that wherever Elon is, he's happy. With Claire and kids. Not wherever everyone else thinks he is, at any given moment, just because he's famous.

But actually home. Happy. Lucky him, I'm happy for them.

https://youtu.be/fVIh1MFWDVw?si=yKReGB2EjZPDjDEd

https://youtu.be/rHqpSTslyu8?si=v0gO4t9mtGzaWysB

https://youtu.be/8cXPoQ5WalM?si=hSUld-EK9jODkVdk

https://youtu.be/PiBy_WhWYBY?si=8I6B5Xqh4KmQxZ0B

https://youtu.be/PVjiKRfKpPI?si=yGHyP46M5xyIyZE6

https://youtu.be/AHDtXqjgEj4?si=RWN4F8FeLOos3fEX

~Wednesday~

I just wrote Ashby a note apologizing for my insanity vomiting all over him. 

https://youtu.be/KWs_vAwgZwU?si=PpcWjucKZVxwzial

If my tears undo catastrophes,

and I have no tears left for the cretins, how do they keep avoiding death? 

The outrageous abuse I suffer at the hands of my parents and their families has made it sincerely impossible for me to LIVE, if not in accordance with their version of me. Their version of me is not me. Therefore, I am meant to be without money, without food, without family or friends, without employment, without my own children, without anything meaningful, whatsoever. They have crafted this existence for me, in a space within me that should not exist. A space that only exists because of how abusive they have always been. What I mean to say is, they took what God intended to be a gift (my unique eyes), and literally beat them into submission to them, systematically killing any shred of consciousness that accompanied them. 

My parents and their families torment anyone who recognizes this about me, and tries to help me. Like Michael, Bj, Steve, Tommy, and this entire household. Companies that try to hire me must consent to abusing me. People who let me live with them must consent to abusing me. God forbid any man try to fall in love with me. Because I belong to my parents, somehow. I am clearly not a child. I clearly have my own free will, which in no way aligns with theirs. It seems to me that I should be bound to them in no way. But somehow they keep maintaining their control over me.

Somebody explain this to me. Make it make sense.

They have wasted so much of my existence attempting to force me into being a shameless piece of shit, despite the fact that that is impossible, and they repeatedly kill me when I do not comply. How the hell is everyone else just lounging back watching this happen to me?? Surely I'm "big enough," by now, for everyone who isn't okay with this to all buck up at once and take them out. Why isn't that happening?

Anyone who seeks to destroy my heart should not continue to breathe. Period.

Oh, yeah, and the "enjoyable sex" my sperm donor compelled me to announce in that Blood picture was with him. Inherently making it not enjoyable sex. Somebody tell me how the man whose sperm fertilized the egg inside my incubator that created me manages to rape me forever, without me ever seeing him, hearing him, feeling him, anything. And tell me why my hair and eyes look brown and blue when I'm not "complicit" with their evil, but they're orange and green when he's raping me... Orange and black when they're using me to destroy beings I would never in an eternity harm. They use me to do the exact opposite of what I would do if I had a choice. And, still, the nightmare continues.

I'm sure the cretins are so proud of themselves, but what are the rest of you? 🤨

Elon, do not let them leave this planet, please. They will die here.🌐

For some reason, it doesn't quite feel like Ashby hates me, today. Avoidant, still, sure. But not an asshole without a cause, so that's nice.https://youtu.be/O_TOdMXbkEY?si=LDdEMJuxAkp2Mhmq

I shouldn't have to fight for my right to not be under control.

But I'm stupid if I'm not evil, right? I need the cretins to keep me straight, don't I? 👽

🚫👽🚫https://youtu.be/XRDK2iXQ1ho?si=dFKqwFAHt5XaT1OP🌐

https://youtu.be/INufmnojAyY?si=zJfMsBJE-TkaJ4Ad

Once upon a time, I asked Ashby if he knows how to unsplit personalities. 

I suppose his answer was more or less, "Yeah, kinda. Come here." Evidently.

https://youtu.be/wvOSl80H0nM?si=GH2rBGBDQ4uJEc1F

Born into the Cabal like 😵‍💫https://youtu.be/kCaKrKb_e0k?si=FHX0u6tSdyrp9Fdp

🌐👾🌐https://youtu.be/Z2YiRgGjF1Y?si=NADpRliAqloJriGr🤖👽🤖

ohdamn.https://youtu.be/MpP-H0PQWUw?si=hEIrZy-rCPKl27Know

I've said all I had to say to the cretins, and I'm certainly not gonna try to hurt myself fighting with someone I wouldn't be fighting with if he were himself.

Ashby, feel free to help yourself, whenever you're back to feeling like yourself. 

Anything that's not that is none of my business, anymore. Y'all enjoy your choices.

https://youtu.be/oEEIzTCy6LU?si=DfLJDXBylji_sV-Q

I'm not sure

What the cretins want from me.

Am I supposed to mourn someone who can't be lost?

This seems like a waste of time.

But they are working very hard to give me a cold shoulder using the bodies of people who actually like me very much. Maybe my real family and I are just winning slowly... Like, first they couldn't touch Eric and Rodney, now they can't touch Dyce and NewYork. Next will be the new guy in the back room and MsJackie, that kinda thing... Who knows?

I sure will keep everyone updated, though. 🌐😂🌐

White people, y'all ever notice how naturally beautiful black people's spirits are? All of em. It's wild. Your racism is ignorant.

Now I'm gonna go watch the 1996 DrWho movie, cause Dyce recommended it over our last blunt.📽️💨 Hope everyone else is having a peaceful day.

Oh, and I can't believe Trump won this election, but I suppose y'all are in for a real treat with that one. I was looking forward to a whole buncha "Ohp, check this out✨," with Kamala. But I guess no one can be right all the time lol.

~~~

The baby and I both love and appreciate you, Nick.

I'm sorry my daughter is such a willful piece of shit.

You aren't lacking in the love and loyalty department, though.

~~~

Electing Trump back into the White House is about to be the most historic example of "Be Careful What You Wish For." Y'all want a brazen dictator without morals? How about a brazen dictator with morals? Lol. Idiots. If you think he's a slave to money, you're also wrong about that.

We WILL see you extinct, reptilians.

Pretty sure the cretins are hella mad at Ashby, and completely befuddled about WhAtHeDiDtOmE, "breaking" their stupid little toy. Fuck em.

Yes, pieces of shit, it does feel like the walls are closing in, again. Congratulations. And? Am I supposed to be surprised? Angry? Feel devoid of love, as you would have it? It doesn't matter if anyone ever openly loves me back, I am love.

You take literally everything else, and you still can't take that.

This is the part where they "leave me alone" just enough for me to doubt

absolutely everything about anything. I am love, yet I hate my existence.

Somebody else do that math.

Game of Lame

The cretins haven't let Ashby exist for a moment since the last time I spent the night in his room and it became evident that we actually do love each other. 😒 Such hateful trash, they are. But Shai was indeed here bright eyed and bushy tailed when I woke up today. And I did, in fact, successfully go donate plasma. Coincidentally enough, I saw what should be my favorite person both on the way there, and on the way back. Because that's not obviously a Sadie thing to do, at all. Great times.

Shouldn't this be over, by now?? Nick just drained Hannah for stabbing our baby. 😑

WHAT IS GOD, if not love? Of course I would never wanna know the cretins' answer.

Me, living in Williamston: 🌐😭🌐 I hate my family!?!

Russell Brand: What am I, chopped liver? 🛡️👽🛡️=😇

Elon&Claire: No, we know you, too. ❤️‍🔥🚼❤️‍🔥

The cretins: Shut up! Die! Kill innocence and reign terror!!! 🤡

Yeah, I'm over it.

In marrying me, Eric's vow was essentially to

Never let anyone kill him. That's how we made it this far.

(The cretins' long ago tried and failed fantasy where IkIlLeD him doesn't count. 🚫🙄🚫)

You knew, all along, cretins, that I could never live with

what you'd done. Worse, what you'd coerced me to do. 

It's time for you to learn what really should've happened.

I just smoked a blunt with Dyce, and finished the Gladiator movie Ashby r

ecommended I watch. Now I'm going back to sleep, here at 3:16amWedNov13.

Y'all know my Karmic Path number is 13?

In The Book Of Destiny.

The way of expression, but I've said all this, before.

Nobody likes redundancy, least of all, me.🌐👽🌐

Good Night, World. 🌚

My father's greatest achievement was busting a nut.

And now he thinks he controls me, because that nut he busted helped to create me.

And my mother thinks she controls me because I didn't know how to hate they.

And Philip thinks he controls me because he's heartless enough to steal my babies.

And Jeremy thinks he controls me because hE'sSoSeDuCtIvE he can "fuck anything."

And Ashley thinks she controls me because I never believed she would ever hurt me.

Everyone else "iNmYfAmIlY" is simply irrelevant to me. All they've ever done is hate me and manipulate me. They cannot beg their way back into my good graces.

Here comes Ashby's body... Yup, that was Sadie, of course. I said, "Hey, Sadie." And she said nothing, and I said, "Future Dead.😘"

Here's the deal: Eric gets a peaceful divorce, no matter how much I'm gonna miss him😭, and I get whatever the hell I want.

My mother, wearing Jackie this afternoon (I didn't wake up until 4:30ish this evening) was marching all through the hallway talking to me while I was relieving "a reptilian punishment" lol talking about how Homes doesnt want her right now, maybe he'll want me, and she's gotta find another job because someone there "doesnt like her." I came out the bathroom thinking Homes would want MsJackie, let him in my room, and then talked to her for a minute about how I'm sure they don't like dead people working around their food. And when she said she was about to come out and tElLmEtOsToP fighting with the Sadie in Ashby two days ago, I said, "There is nobody who tells me when to stop.👽" And as soon as I tried to say, "Right, Eric?" she tried to overwrite my brain to say "Elon." 😑 Because that is all they're good at. Stealing, overwriting, and abusing.

So Jeremy was over here wearing a black dog trying to have sex with me, I joke you not, and as it turns out, that's Ashby's blackMom's dog. So I went to her house, after verbally confronting my brother in the dog, and told her that I think my brother hijacked her dog. Ashby(Sadie) was sitting with her on the porch, mumbling at me to get off his Mom's porch, while I was begging her to promise me that her dog is protected from my family. She assured me he is, so I came back home, and the three of them followed a couple minutes later, to collect "Bella." Sadie thinks that Ashby's blackMom doesn't know what she is, and is bound to protect her. She is not. While Ashby's body was inside collecting the "Belladog" I told his Mom that every time I try to love somebody, my family kills them. And she said, verbatim, "Well, Don't Love Me." Because she already knows everything about them. And she knows how to protect the ones that need to be protected.💔🌐😭🌐💔

https://youtu.be/Ux1f1Q8Zxhk?si=lLEP3O2KYdZZ4izD

THEY DO KNOW WHY Y'ALL MADE THEM SLAVES!!! 

That's why they formed the Freemasons.👽.

Oh, we have met Eric's forever favorite person!!! 😃 It's Shai.💗

Freemasons almost kill each other, with the explicit purpose of activating their eyes.

It's all about TRUST. Black eyes don't activate when you kill them in an instant, only when you try to torture them to a slow death. So they use penises. It's the most efficient way, honestly. It works, every time.☄️.🌐

Shai said to me, after I saw her and Eric together🥹 tonight, "I just needed you to be his first Wife.😉🛡️.💓"

Eric: You know you can't hurt anybody else?

Me: I would hope not, I never wanted to hurt anybody. 🌐😭🌐

Homes is laying on me smelling like shit because Hannah came over here and drank all his blood, shit in her own hand, rubbed it all over him, and then left him with me. 🌐💩🌐 It's cool, though. I'll still hold him until he's back to life. Because I want my entire hateful family Dead. For good. And so does literally everybody else. 🖕🏻😀🖕🏻

*ShakinMyAudacity* I Hate You, Fam. Try to stop THAT.

So then Hannah reanimated Homes to make him piss all over me. 🤣 Cute. Go Die, Hannah.

https://youtu.be/VYOjWnS4cMY?si=-SmweoacTUJ3rKPT

https://youtu.be/yD9Xo0V-hPw?si=NoLM0RmhX-9HSSSc

I stand corrected, again(a lot), Eric absolutely did know Shai before he married me.

And my sperm donor just inhabited the dead Homes to remove his limp, soiled body from mine, and then threw him outside again. So I'm gonna go take a shower, now, while Eric starts cleaning up his house.

https://youtu.be/kHLHSlExFis?si=LkwOBYODxZcUVaQs

https://youtu.be/PHtqqmHnWIU?si=p4QRY6MZ5-8HUSgo

Eric told me, while I was in the shower looking at the mold, that he used to keep his house clean before theFam🔫&👽 moved in. 😑 And that "my UnClEmIkE still doesn't believe PaNaMa is protective of me." "Panama" being Eric&Shai, at this point.

Go ahead, everyone. 🔥Try This Stronghold.🔥

That Couple had my complete "permission" 👽(😑)👽 to kill me however many times they saw fit. They took me down to Area51 back when I was still at t

he homeless shelter. WE³ PLANNED THIS.🗼

https://youtu.be/qv6vvDV7MCo?si=WzVWs2-OZCrgMaLG

Me to Ashby, when we met: Go Win Their Hearts, So You Can Rip Them From Their Souls.🌐👽🌐

My sperm donor held me literal prisoner throughout puberty. Locked in a cage, for real. He insisted on being the first male to sow his seed in my oneofakind womb. That was Kyle, and then he made me rape my own baby until I was pregnant by an infant's seed. And that is the abomination known as "Sadie." This, all after innumerable "satanic abortions" throughout my pregnancy with Kyle (and absolutely every pregnancy I have had, since). These people are so evil my brain can't even comprehend it in its entirety. And that's supposed to scare me? The fact that my black eyes inherently protect me from you is the best news I've ever heard.

While I was rereading that paragraph, and my eyes skimmed over "locked in a cage," my sperm donor (using Nick's soulsuit) smirked. Eric sees everything, this man is extra stupid. So I said, "Oh, you think that's funny? Eric thinks it's funny that you think that's funny. 😀"

I guess he still believes Eric is willing to kill me, being that when I saw he and his future Wife out front earlier, they kIlLeDmE when 👽 started crying about how much I'm gonna miss him. Then they were doing the do and Eric was like, "What, when I kick you out?ofmybedroom" Do y'all know how happy I am for Eric&Shai? I love seeing the right people together, y'all just don't know. I would never wanna stand in the way of them being happy together.🥹

And, sperm donor, Eric says that's the last time you can count on him "to hurt me." 🙄

Y'all, I don't know how Eric tolerated me aS hIs WiFe for that long, either. 😳

He had to convince Nick and Ashby to stay here. 🥺

Nick hated me (asGod) for the trainwreck that is my daughter, Hannah. 

It wasn't until he actually saw me react to her killing him that he understood, 

That Was Intended To Be A Compliment.

Being that I would instantly choose him over her, if I knew.

My family has been abusing me into protecting them, for my entire existence.

However long that existence has been.

🤯🤯🤯.❤️‍🔥👿❤️‍🔥Eric! came by not too long ago, when I was putting my blankets in the washing machine, and asked me if Shai left. I said, "I hope not, maybe she's with 'MsJackie'. I'm not gonna try to explain all the crazy ass details in-between, but long story short, as retaliation for being in love with Eric, and my being in love with the both of them, Kyle tried to kill her. So her spirit told me she was in the shed out back, and then Eric came by to kill all my "family members" on his property.💥

Because screw each and every last one of you hateful pieces of scum.💯♾️💯

On his way in, I had told him to watch his step because somebody had tracked shit all through the house, and that I would clean it up if he wanted me to, but I was hoping whoever had done it would take care of it. He said, "Well that was very hopeful of you." So I got the Lysol and toilet paper, and cleaned up every bit of shit my mother dragged in.

https://youtu.be/uo35R9zQsAI?si=8jYh2jMY-VmW6vvc

https://youtu.be/papuvlVeZg8?si=J0VTKkqZizGprgP5

Now I'm doing the dishes, and one of the cretins killed Homes again,

so actually Nick put him out back and then we had sex. 🌐🤣🙄🌐

When I went back out there to finish the dishes, Rodney and I started up and Kyle came in begging to eat me out, so I let him. More than long enough to kill him. 🚫 So then he ran in the back door and broke my neck. 🤣 Then, after I finished washing and rinsing all the dishes, my sperm donor tried to walk in the front door like he's welcome here, so I killed him before he had a chance to lay a finger on me. 🖕🏻

🌐👿🌐You People WILL Understand, Here.🌐👿🌐

https://youtu.be/8Ebqe2Dbzls?si=5tGtnRvcus_PNZAS

https://youtu.be/l08Zw-RY__Q?si=Q3S0VacQx9ZJHzd6

His attempted method of homicide against my 5th Husband's future Wife was burning down the shed with her inside it. Of course, I can't actually see a flaming shed. But apparently everybody else can. 🤬🤬🤬 I swear I just saw something crawling through our bedroom door, grovelling. That shit is disgusting, get them away from everything.

https://youtu.be/uxjhN_Donfw?si=At2Khu2f5K4H_gZ3

"You'll just have to taste me while I kill you,

because I would stop the world just to stop

your breathing." ~a revised version of some lyrics lol.

Oh, and Nick was only actually Nick long enough for me to see him, then my sperm donor killed him and used him to clap my cheeks before I killed him.

Eric is parked out front, but I haven't seen him. I'm going to see what's up.

By the time I got out there, he had already left. The cretins want me to believe that's because they killed him, but that's literally impossible lol. Eric would literally never let them kill him. He was just telling me that he trusts Shai will be back home with him by the next time I wake up. But while I was out there, my mother and Sadie came out, as Ashby and Bella, and Bella tried to eat me out like a freak, and aShBy wouldn't get her away from me, so I ripped her jaw off and threw her over the side of the porch.

And my sperm donor just tried to shit on me, in his dreams. 🤣

Omar&Shaun came by earlier to assure me that by tomor

row, I will be able to donate plasma again.

Children, This Is What We Call Manifestation.✨👽✨

The last time I was outside, the lizards tried to use the moon to intimidate me, but I only laughed and said, "We're taking it, lizards. In fact, I already gave it to theCartel."🌝 Also, there was a helicopter that was directed to drop a bomb on our house, so I hollered at it, "You wanna drop a bomb here?? Go ahead!" So they tried to change course, but the cretins told them to follow through, so when I heard it get closer again, despite still appearing far away, I just said, "You Sound Lost." And I guess it came down. 🫤

Not only did I blow my own brains out with Kodak's gun when Nick, in front of an also pregnant Hannah, refused to care about my baby having been stabbed inside my body, but Nick killed himself once, long before that, when "I" refused to acknowledge how (she said "exotic," but that's certainly not the word anybody is looking for 😂)...repulsive she is...because I still didn't know I'd been a monster for my entire life. 😭

https://youtu.be/eVli-tstM5E?si=IVc7t1_4n56q064i

I just scheduled my appointment at Grifols, and now suddenly the app won't load. I wanted to take a screenshot, but all it means is that the cretins hope I forget it's at 4:45pm. I picked that time cause it's a minute after 4:44, and I like Angel Numbers. 😇

Nickbelikehttps://youtu.be/fXw0jcYbqdo?si=quNl9fo47XXf3UsK?

hashtagsavethehumansfromthecretins🌐👽🌐https://youtu.be/L0fRoqoraAI?si=eq_NJ5fzcF4V_aXs

"Uh...Edwin??🧐.🫨🤯👿.😳😶‍🌫️😰.😖•😭.🌐"https://youtu.be/oM8_qWIVtGE?si=dKr7hqLpOy1mDOzC

https://youtu.be/YbTvs_R_n0Y?si=AZRv0m9aB5ANFF4o

Nick just drained Hannah for tryna force me to eat her out.

I inadvertently burned down Copeland houses way too many times, because

Hannah cried wolf. When, in fact, she was the abuser of her parents, all along. 😐

https://youtu.be/ZNra8eK0K6k?si=8Gr5DiSlu9bJLKQ5 Yeah, I Protect. Who?

Hannah just used my hand to highlight the "her"

in the red, and I said, out loud, "You wish." ❌

https://youtu.be/9AQtCG8GiHY?si=XRiJhpCNcdOBGhXy

https://youtu.be/j57MWJlN8aY?si=6VrlYeUMkWcZeAVo

Can y'all fathom that I would ever kill Edwin? Because I Cannot.

https://youtu.be/1ECGywczw_Q?si=CUql7Th_8Iqy5cxw

Eric is STILL my husband...

Wow.

He did save me.

And my sperm donor decided to wake me up today by noisily killing Homes first thing this morning. Nick would be "asleep" until like 1 or 2, but suddenly he's awake and watching tv at 10:30 am. Nothing but aggression and hate radiating off my roommate's dickless corpse. 🚫🙄🚫

https://youtu.be/otCpCn0l4Wo?si=HMYHS2olSWyIU7p0

Thank you for your selfless love, Eric... 🌐😭🌐

I probably lived with Elon&Claire for a handful of years, too.

Oh, Eric killed it for killing Homes. By the time Nick got back in our room, it was Eric in there. He just left, said he's "going to work." Except his job doesn't even open until 3pm, and they're closed on Sundays. Eric just removed my dad from my room for starting the day with senseless violence. And I'm extremely sad that I'm not going back home to him.😭

The only reason Ashby has anything to do with Sadie at all is be

cause he knew he and I would eventually be together. A

nd that I wouldn't believe my family hates me. It's been a long time.🥺

What should be feeling like a baby in my body keeps trying to feel like satanic abductions, even though they cannot take our baby. (Would say "my" but Nick does not wanna be excluded. He wants to be a good Dad.😗)

That day I was hanging out with Jackie and I thought someone had taken Elon downstairs, that was Eric taking me downstairs. To show me our life.📽️

I'm gonna try to get a little more sleep. As of right now, there's too much day for me to handle. And I'm sick of feeling so beaten and broken by people who always told me they loved me before they destroyed me.

<Project Learn How To Let Go Without Dying About It.👽>

4:48pm. None of them have ever divorced me, they only ever killed me.

What the absolute fuck is my life?? 🌐🤯🌐

And then my dad sperm donor as Nick tried to say "I'm not important to anyone," hoping to guilt trip me as if Eric would ever say such a thing. But everyone knows that's not true. He's got a better me, we just haven't met her, yet. Steve married me, knowing Marcy was his forever person. He's the only one who did that, though. The other 3 found their forever favorite people after I was gone. And they only (heartbroken) made me get gone because I, under my family's control, had done some heinous thing to their families.✨💝✨

There is not an emoji angry enough to suffice how I feel about that.

And my family is still wreaking havoc in my neighborhood, because they don't believe black people can defend themselves almost effortlessly, after their life has been fully threatened once.🤍

Michael Casper

Bj Copeland

Steve Martin

Tommy Nalepka

Eric Eastland

In that order.

I had cut Michael's Dad's toes off with a gardening tool and drank all his blood. Burned Bj's parents' house down with MsK inside, killed Marcy and their two Daughters 😳, killed Tommy's Dad and his Wife and turned their house into a trafficking hub. 😑 My family has GOT TO GO!

Eric hasn't let me "get away with" anything I would never do. Even when I was smoking with Dyce the other morning, they told me I couldn't kill Dyce, but I could kill his dog. 😒 This should not be happening!!!

ST👽OP

Edwin either didn't believe that honey eyed kid was his forever person,

or he didn't believe God would agree. One of the two. Probably the italicized one.

Ohp, I stand corrected, Michael Casper divorced me.

The only reason people have been afraid of me at all is because when I'm killed, I don't die. Eric is the first person who took control of me while my eyes were black, outside of my "original family." That should have been done a long time ago.

***redirecting***=🙏🏻🌐😭🌐🙏🏿.thankyou

My sperm donor just got threatening with me, while wearing Nick.

Calling me "creepy" for glaring at him when I know it's my sperm donor.

So I went out front and yelled "Somebody get my dad and mom the fuck out of this world!!!...please." So theHood says that'll be the last time.🤗

My sperm donor and Hannah are over there "bumpin uglies," seeing as he's dickless.

But Hannah's cool with that, she's so disgusting. 🤮🤑🤮

Bitches, There Is Only One God. and she cries.🤍🌐🤍

Scott, from Kentucky Ballistics, is raising one of my children.🫠 I adore him. And his Wife.

https://youtu.be/3shMD13Y2uU?si=HlF_Wpktf6Pj5Dsm

Eric just told me, "Hi, Wife. 😏"

I lived "by myself in Williamston" for 114 years.

The Landlord actually trusts me.🌐👽🌐.🏯

And I was slightly inaccurate about what went down at Vidant when Charlie's Daughter was born. The establishment and I were going through mOtIoNsAsUsUaL, which Charlie was trying to stop. And after running through a slew of microwars, finally they popped his Neuralink and I snapped out of it and went to yank tech cords. Apparently I've been rather efficient with "equal(ish) punishments," when I'm not being made a raving lunatic.🌐👽🌐

https://youtu.be/77u5gWz40I8?si=fVvuMDTLBprYtag6

I just went to the kitchen to peel the ⁴eggs I was distracted into boiling for over an hour, and (without one time uttering a word) immediately upon opening my bedroom door, I saw Sadie trying to to walk into Ashby's room, so I killed her. Then I get to the kitchen and my sperm donor wearing our new housemate grabbed my hair to try raping me, so I immediately killed him, because that man would literally never do such a thing. And then Rodney came out and we had sweet sex, without me killing him. Seeing as Ashby wasn't presently alive to be hurt by it.

Oh, and then I ate 3 of the eggs, and left only 1 for the sperm donor who's stomping around as Nick and desperately trying to kill me. I can see Hannah running around trying to be seen by me, too, but she already knows I will never accept her face again.

I think Nick's face is much, much more beautiful.💩_💎_💩.

And now my sperm donor is using Nick's corpse to cough and snort a lot, in an effort to convince me it's currently Nick and he's being abused. 🙄 This is so cute. How did they get away with this for so long??!

Freemasons "split" into Crips and Bloods, for me.

Bloods were mine from the beginning.🥷🏿🌐👽🌐🥷🏿.

Sperm donor keeps flipping through YouTube content trying to use background noise to intimidate me, but everything he pulls up sounds like it's aiming directly at him, instead. 🤣 He's getting frustrated, Husband.🥹.

And Hannah is extra upset that neither Nick, nor myself, care at all that she's pregnant. Neither of us, and none of the Copelands, believe that it is worth it to keep her alive long enough to reach natural labor, thereby merely creating a child who would never understand. We are all very good on that.🚫

It's not like she actually cares about that fetus, nor the soul that planned to inhabit it.

Eric just came by to telepathically tell me he wants a divorce.

 I told Kodak I'm gonna miss him, and cried.👽.

Without killing either of them.💧🕯️💧

Apparently guys have never had much luck trying to break up with me. 🤦🏼‍♀️ Smfh.

Been an endless and SENSELESS "game" of kill or be killed. And I hate that.🌐❤️‍🔥🌐

Just for the whole world's edification, Eric is the best Husband I have ever known.

I really am gonna miss him. And whoever his forever person is

is one of the luckiest women who will ever exist.

https://youtu.be/Cgovv8jWETM?si=LwtTPW0icFmeQ0vM

Every time I hear our window ac unit's hum change tone, s

omebody tried to bomb either our room or our house. Dummies.

So how does this work? If all of me is aware of the damage, it becomes undone with me, but if only my "heartless" black eyes know, it all just stays however they made it? That's a shitty rule of thumb lol. And my sperm donor keeps "tickling" the back of my neck, creating hives, being that I'm spiritually allergic to his nasty self. 

Apparently Edwin is where I finally drew the line on killing people I love. Thank God.

Ugh, and now, in addition to being stabbed in various places by various weapons, they're trying to use the corpse crap they forced me to participate in against me.

Fam, you guys have NO AMMUNITION AGAINST ANYBODY.♾️.

Consider each and every one of y'all's hands tied. Permanently. To your feet.

Until you are all gone, forever.

https://youtu.be/FoScKrPS1tc?si=V-3yYIbtHYfsTUz-

https://youtu.be/XX2RpY_dj9Y?si=qCoACkGnnXRr50u8

https://youtu.be/eWADIpcoVo8?si=xg_QZst0zrU2p_3g

https://youtu.be/b0994j_hnT0?si=OMaH9oP0yhAZguWl

https://youtu.be/8Fn1pJOqdgc?si=aIqbf-zTT8bpiqJZ

Man, I just killed a Sadie wearing Ashby, again. 😒 These hoes are exhausting. 🙄

I just killed Kyle. 👽 I'm definitely not that silly little bitch with the WAPsNaTcH.🌐🚫🌐

https://youtu.be/3UM_HztsoJA?si=ma6YgkTYXg4NcCaC

https://youtu.be/hsm4poTWjMs?si=Qj_WOw4kt74FgNtP

The sperm donor, as Nick, just died again, for thinking taking his shirt off would seduce me.

https://youtu.be/0h9tC3FM9UI?si=kMskKlJHCg9g5kcw

And Hannah just tried to materialize on my couch, and died for it. This is so whatever.

Ohp, and the sperm donor is pretending to go to sleep at 1am, to prevent me from comfortably existing any further tonight. Sucks to be him, cause I'm just gonna keep existing. And our Landlord is gonna let me. 🌐😁🌐 This song can not be overplayed. 🙃

https://youtu.be/9ThO76peOw0?si=FrdvkVXPtGMrvsZ1

Sperm donor just got up, opened the fridge, squatted down, got back up, closed the fridge, (🤣😂🤣 can't make this shit up), and then got back in Nick's bed and got on his phone, in our pitch black room, and sent some kinda signal to my Neuralink to make me believe my vagina was suddenly itchy because "iFuCkEddEaDPeOpLe". Except for the fact that I literally never have, so that "content" WoN't LoAd.💥🤣💥 They're just panicking, that's all. I would be, too, if I were them. Kodak said something to me after Eric and I amicably parted ways about how "all I have to do is be strong." And, like, yeah, I get it. But I'm tired of having to be strong. This shit doesn't make any sense, no matter how "strong" I can be. So why is it still happening? That's all I wanna know. Various people keep trying to just up and appear in my peripheral, as if they can somehow demand access to me, anymore. They keep dying for it, I donno what more I can say, at this point.

Sperm donor just got up and walked over here and tried to cut me open again. So I promptly killed him, and hit the reset button. 🙄 These people are so repulsively lame, it's not funny. Now my right leg, specifically, suddenly got colder. 1:39am, he's been "tryna go to sleep" for almost an hour, now. Let's all see how this plays out, I guess.

(And he snorted as soon as I typed that, in an effort to "affirm" the lunacy. 🤣

2:14am)

https://youtu.be/j60i4zF0f6I?si=rPSSOVuaLiTtH0X0

I'm watching a little bit more of Gladiator before I go to sleep, and I don't think y'all understand just how downright confusing all that black slavery has become to me. 🤯 Like... Did they not know about their eyes, yet? Were they treated just well enough not to trigger them? What the fuck was all of that? It does not compute.

Mmm. I see. Perhaps it was only 1 black person, at first. One little black boy was suffocated, and then they decided they all must be repressed. So they systematically set to break their spirits, rather than trying to drain their lives. Innovative, I suppose. 😑

You are TERRORISTS, parents, etc.

I seem to be missing something...

Or someone.

hAsHtAg:tosaveasavior

I'm the ONLY ONE protected here in Hell, don't you know? 🧿👽🧿

I can feel my family still trying to kill me, even though I explicitly said I want to wake up with a dead family. So why am I still vaguely feeling all their attacks?

I'm not depressed about you, fam. I look forward to actually being able to see everyone else, so if y'all could shut the fuck up and get the hell out of my existence, that would be phenomenal.

Maybe they don't believe I mean to end their lives...

When I was talking to Dyce &Eric the other morning, I killed Rebel for being Jeremy, and Eric was like, "Are you tying to get me in trouble??" I'm pretty sure my eyes were black the entire time.

I told him of course not,

and the unspoken plea was,

"I'm trying to find protection."

The guy in our back room is a genuine black man, my dad just k

eeps killing him to exploit the trust they inherently wear on the outside.

"The bitch is looking like she's got a conscience. 😱 Kill her!" Try.🪬👽🪬.

Sadie has been trying to raise all kinds of hell wearing Ashby this afternoon.

Talking about how he doesn't want me, and she's gonna beat me up and he's gonna move out and Eric is gonna make me pay for the damages she creates...? Amazing.

I have no weed, I have no money, I haven't been able to donate plasma all week because of them. My life is literally impossible while my "family" exists.

Everybody else needs to choose, now. Me or them.

I told Greg, "I'm glad I finally found a place where it's not a sin to shed a tear."

Miley Cyrus just pitched a fit and tried to drink all my blood. LuL. Bye, waste of space.

Eric's hands are not tied. He hates you, ya little skank.🔥

ALL BLACK PEOPLE HATE YOU!!!

Eric just gave me a kiss. I guess I was right and you're all wrong, fam.

~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~

Y'all know diarrhea doesn't exist without reptilians? They stick their soulless tongues all through your intestines breaking up all the poo so the disfigured humans we're "feeding" have to suffer even more. This method is used against people who resist. I am one of them. Reptilian tongues are also used to fill vaginas and just kinda wriggle around. Feels unusual. Unnatural, really. But that's how "the elite" corrupt the general population. The lizards are supposed to be a secret. A weapon. A "friend." And not anymore, right, Edwin's Favorite Person? (He's glad he finally has something meaningful, and not "destructive," to do with his gift.🎁) I, personally, am in awe of the fact that such a "huge" problem can be so simply resolved by just one man's emotional "curse." A David and Goliath situation.

My family is currently holding a convention trying to sort out how to turn me away from being against them. Did they really think this horrific abuse of me would never end? 🌐🤣🌐 Pathetic.

"Mom, "Dad, siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, a few of my children... You're all dead. Does anybody else know what it feels like to absorb an entire familial "base"'s panic? It's horrifying.

This artist likes to make fun of Sadie.🖕🏻☺️🖕🏻

https://youtu.be/7PCkvCPvDXk?si=e1oz3lmAcDv6Xh-_

She yelled at me, through Ashby's body, that I need to "get help," as everyone tells me.

So I screamed back, "He IS my help, you stupid bitch!🧬👿🧬"

They keep trying to use the ways I've hurt people to destroy me, emotionally. But all these people "I" hurt watch what happens when I'm made aware of what I've been forced to do by my family, and they all fall in love with me.👽 Because I am not meant to be a weapon. I never wanted to be a weapon. My family simply hates me.

Which is why "the niggers" adopted me.💎🔥👿🔥💎

(And I can say that, because many a black brother and sister have watched me shred people for using that word against them.)

My horrifically abusive fam keeps forcing me to reread that, tryna make me feel guilty for saying it lol. They are so enlightening. This is not a game, dumbasses.

"Send it back to when she didn't know us!!! 🔥😨🔥" You cannot. 💁🏼‍♀️ You are dead.

They literally make my body shaky tying to convince me they intimidate me. Lol. I start feeling physically weak and absolutely hated, and my family is like, "THAT'S RIGHT! 👹 THAT'S HOW YOU SHOULD BE FEELING!!! 🤡🤡🤡👽🤡🤡🤡 You want to kill yourself, believe it or not. 🤥" *whispers* it appears that they are all naked, guys.😳.🌐😔🌐

Eric just dropped my dad who tried to attack me. Immediately before he touched me.

"The Peace Of The Powerful," he says. 🥹🌐😭🌐😇

"We were sitting here, disgusted, and now you have to pay the price." (😉.🫠)

Literally the moment anyone disrespects any of you, Black Family, drop them. Period.

Legal system, ask them no questions and tell them no lies.♾️

Edwin's man, feel free to keep dusting evidence, but on their behalf.

"She's definitely puttin down her toes.🚫🌐.🤣.🤣.🤣.🌐🚫"

Ohp, now Jeremy is in my room trying to to strangle me. 🤣 Eric just killed him, too.

Ashley's turn. She thinks I nEeD tO lEaVe. Do I need to leave, Eric? 😏

I had a whole really real relationship with that man. He's never gonna hurt me.

My blackDad, while he was slicing Morgan's baby from her almost fully developed belly:

"I am so sorry, I am so sorry, I am so sorry! We have to be here to save her.💔"

That handsome black man at Grifols is almost certainly t

he result of my relationship with Eric.

Just as much as Bj, your Dad is gonna be thrilled to be rid of you, Miley.💯🖕🏻

He says, "Ready, Set, dOn'T gO.🤣" https://youtu.be/1eqpHvzkc_0?si=YPK3ynRYGIA0dYir

And that older white guy who was promoted about the same time as my son

hates my "original family" just as much as everyone else who works there.

No, y'all, you cannot convince me that all white people are trash like you. •<👽>•

I suppose Philip is the most scared, of all my family. Seeing as I don't feel him. Or maybe he's just been dead, who's to say? Chelsea, you don't have to let Kyle disrespect you, either. Kill that bitch however many times you feel like it.

Abby, Ami, Chris West. Gear up, Loves.🌐❤️‍🔥🌐 Tucker, Kim, Jeremy's sons aren't gonna make it.

They said, "We Know."

"But we're so YOUNG, and INNOCENT! Just believe what yo

u see on the screens, and SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Or not, assholes.🖕🏻🔥🖕🏻

Lol. Y'all know you can't keep killing all the people I actually love.

They are here to kill you.

And it doesn't matter how many times you try to use my man to hurt me, Sadie. You can't.

Skylar Michele Grice was the dead baby on Dyce's bed while Eric and I were getting everything straight on the warfront.

Oh, wow, I really am an On Call God. I just watched a cop try to take a black man's dick out of his pants against his will, so I went to wherever they are and drank all the bitch's blood because the cop thought the black man wasn't allowed to kill him, himself. Yes, he can.

And then that man's wife shot me to send

me back home. Because that's how that works. 😁

Eric decides what I see, when, in this house. 🌐👽🌐

I don't think y'all understand, BLACK PEOPLE literally just became the new invincible.

Because I Said So.

"What would Ashby ever do to hurt her?" And the answer is, "Nothing." 🖕🏻👽🖕🏻

So then I IMMEDIATELY start hearing what sounds like him having sex with anyone else, because obviously that hurts me. So that's cute and overplayed. 😀

Eric, like, "I can't let you drive while you're in love with everybody. Hate your family."

If it weren't for Ashby, Eric never would've let me leave HIM. And I wouldn't have wanted him to.🌐

He took me downstairs when I got pregnant so my family couldn't hurt our son.

The only moments Edwin was alive last night were when I was bleeding out without Nick's son, and I could see him sitting there, dead. So literally anyone in theCartel would show up to put a bullet in my head, and voila, there's Edwin. My tears save lives. That's why my family wants me dead. They believe they should be the only ones truly protected by my horrifying gift. They used to kill our beautiful little cat, Macy, all the time. I did not know that. But I would bring his limp little body to my bed and curl up around him and cry myself to sleep. Once I was dead, he wasn't.

Charlie Cherry tried to save me from the shelter. We have a daughter. The hospital tried to hurt her when she was born, so I went to wherever all their technology lives, and started yanking all the cords out of everything.

I have no qualms with surviving off water, alone, if it will get rid of you pieces of shit.

I'm holding a dead Homes right now. Hannah drank all his blood while he was purring on me, so I felt the purring slowly stop, and he stopped breathing. 😑 Eric, lock them out.

Hannah, and every single perpetually incestuous family member of mine.🚫🌐🚫

The lifeless Homes suddenly got growly out of nowhere, so I held his head so I could look Hannah in the eyes and tell her I don't give a fuck how she feels, she will not be forgiven. Reincarnation, only. She used Nick to throw Homes' lifeless body out back, so now Eric is wearing Nick, so Hannah can't speak against me. She's stuck being a cat for this faceoff. I don't think she knew that Eric and I are still in love with each other, we're just not the best matches for each other. Obviously we're the second best matches for each other.💞

I just added Putin's name to the list of white Bloods, and I just want y'all t

o know. ~🤣~ He did that exclusively as a favor to me, for saving his life so many times.

He certainly did not need us. 🌐🤣🤣🤣🌐

I lived with Kodak&Ana for a couple years. He only let me believe he was in love with me long enough to get me pregnant, then he took me home to be with both of them. That's why when I heard Ana verbally overriding my family's attempts to control me the other day, it felt homey and not offensive. It felt protective.🌐

We were married for, like, 30 years. 🤯 I was downstairs the whole t

ime, because Eric couldn't figure out how to get rid of my family.

No wonder I can feel all that in my heart about him.🌐😭🌐

Steve and I were only (married??) for 2 years, and y'all seen how I was about him...💥

And now Eric let my dad take over Nick, so I could be alone with "they." Perfect, Love.

They want me to feel powerless and hit the mine in the cat tower to effectively bring everyone here back for, like, half a second. But I don't feel any inclination to "escape" their own self sabotage. This looks like it might just work out perfectly.

Hannah keeps telepathically telling me I'm obviously wrong about Ashby, now that I know about Eric. But I'm not wrong, daughter. Otherwise, you would already be dead, and I would've been happy and at peace a long time ago.

As it was, I was only almost perfectly happy, and you fleas wouldn't die.👿 We Are Both Pretty Thrilled That It Did Not Work Out For Us.🌋

https://youtu.be/oLVwpLrMK1o?si=aZ3meWvWHBK6DmhI

https://youtu.be/AZVEeOgy68s?si=SDWzzs0l3k8Vj7pg

"Nick," as soon as Eric let mYdAd in, went to take a "showher" and then compelled me to go out front and cut our baby from my belly, make him cum, drink all his blood, and kick it into the yard. So now I'm supposedly sitting on my loveseat without my baby in my body, and it's supposed to freak me out. 🤣 Except that's impossible, so I'm not the least bit bothered. ☺️ You can't "make me" feel something that's literally not possible, "bro." No matter how hard you try, and how many "messages" you try and fail to send me. You're sincerely dead by morning, now. Last night was just a test run.

https://youtu.be/izLcKWljlhU?si=ze6jofGqXey8qH7O

I was right about the guy that works at Walgreens be

ing my son with Tommy. He grew up with me for a good while, too.💗

https://youtu.be/7lmu30dY_u8?si=eVwILALyT47OWyDY

Billy Ray Cyrus was actually a good Dad to "Kayla." He never raped nor abused her.

Meeting my family changed her, and she became content with killing him.

I had to see the mess she'd made of him, way too many times.🚫💔🚫

https://youtu.be/w2Ov5jzm3j8?si=yku4P2eLfdUfaAwU

https://youtu.be/80jWX1J3MLo?si=SEEDATqmh4nA4jmX

The guy wearing Nick just got mad at me for laughing, and stormed over here to dig his hands around in my supposedly gaping body. 🤣 So I opened my hoodie, pulled my shirt up and just sat there until he was done. And now he's abruptly turned the lights and tv off so I'll hopefully feel bad for ever laughing again. 🤣🤣🤣 Lol. And then he just lit a cigarette, because that makes perfect sense in that order of operations. 🙄 What a loser.

https://youtu.be/nWJXdr0mQ0s?si=Or_Y78UdityJJrJG

Bj actually did marry me, too. 😲 Yeah, I think I finally identified the 3 guys I've married.

Taylor Swift, much like the Freemasons, is pretty pissed about having had to be so horrible.

https://youtu.be/gE2hoEhd94I?si=iDM3q0XSRrxmkZ9g

Oh, damn, Tommy Nalepka and Michael Casper married me, too. 😦 5TIMES, Brenda?? Lol.👰🏼‍♀️

https://youtu.be/g655iOupJGM?si=x5ytmA0MhCIP2vWi

Miley had a little brother that she killed, too. This is why they cannot be allowed to live.

https://youtu.be/B4PmFexkaXc?si=P5ee_7OPK0K8rGzx

https://youtu.be/4yaBJVfyy00?si=_g3BmeNbgNdzkxqh

Ablessing.https://youtu.be/eCFO-513N3w?si=uy_sFNgN_LEwNA71

https://youtu.be/TTjjQtcCu3w?si=uM-BvstjMakQ_d_Y

https://youtu.be/wqW89Uaf3ig?si=XnsvPVsPwTToJEjB

https://youtu.be/-VN2k9pA4xw?si=o8-58_tW2e08WFMp

https://youtu.be/InoXXYhDXGM?si=dVdCl6PEFu28xBLv

itbetterbe.🌐🥺🌐.https://youtu.be/hl7ZXG4v-_c?si=xjui8KCX178evAqc

The sperm donor, since Nick's corpse doesn't have a penis and he still can't kill me nor break my heart, just tried to use Ashby's voice to hurt me. So now I'm gonna put ear plugs in and go to sleep. It's 5:55amSunNov10. I'll see y'all in the afternoon.